PeAceBlues' spot

2008-05-05T06:34:00.000-07:00

Forgive and Forget the past..

Whatever that happens already pass..I really thank actually for everyone's on the concern,care and love for the three years including last yr's bdae party! I was very touched even though i always dont show..I dont believe in touchin to tears..

I think all the three years birthday celebration would rmb in my heart because I never had a party before nor my old friends celebrate my bdae..We nv believe in celebrating which shows our bond wasnt close..I wish i cld be closer to alot of ppl in schs..

I'm turnin 21 yrs old in several several mths later..So i wish everything wld be fine and smooth..

Forgive me on always writing cruel words on this blog..I actually want to express myself but sometimes circumstances makes it worse..I think for those who I wrote on this blog I actually wish things cld be better for u and me but i guess tt "me" was emphasized to o much that mistakes happen..

Anyway, thanks for everyone for being there even though time changes several things and ppl, all of u at least nv change tt caring heart..

How I wish things could be the same as before but once change happen, nothing could be the same again..

2008-03-29T09:52:00.000-07:00

My day was actually so happy and I was about to go to sleep peacefully until i saw posts on my tagboard..

I feel very sad that how come I can't live my own life and had to be told and controlled by people..

It's not i do not want to write out the person's name, i want the person to realise everything themselves before I could start solving the problem..It's people different way of handlin problem..I admit maybe Rosy wrote things too harshly sometimes..I always write things on the spot so maybe it could be on impulse that things are to this critical..

I actually already sort of forgotten the situation and already forgiven the person but I was pull back again and now I felt that all the sorrow are back again..So sadly, a blog owned by me but not controlled by me..

LET IT GO and LET IT BE....

People who committed suicide are caused by outsiders who think they could solve every problem not knowing they worsen the situation..
I just feel sometimes for one word or one situation I done, people already stereotype me to this extent..

2008-03-20T07:21:00.000-07:00

Thanks for all the support you gave me too..

Aja! Fighting!Ganbatte! Baxia!(Lee Dahae's style!)

2008-03-19T11:22:00.000-07:00

Can I just tell you Anonymous that I hate your style of working things out?

Using people's soft spot and tackle to make sure people listen..

Playing politics ah..I would never tolerate that in my world..

You are not the boss in my world..

I control my own world not you..

I love to be real and happy to people I feel that is worth my smile..

I'm afraid you failed that qualification and I would never ever smile to you again unless I see the change in you..

I'm not going learn from you to suck up on people's ass.. then behind their back,criticise them..

I appreciate what people done and gave me, not like you kept thinking you did the most to help the world..

My world needs no one like you so just change before I take my broom and chase you out..

Don't dirty my happy world, Superiority Freaks!!
(This involved more than one person, so please do not assume what I wrote is pin pointing one individual)

2008-03-19T10:30:00.000-07:00

Sometime i feel sad for people who have to wear a mask to make things work..

They must cheat themselves to this extent...

They could never be the greatest person because what they got are things they cheated to get, not by their real capabilities..

If they were real, they could have use the common way instead of backstabbing, act as the pathetic party, try to push all the blame to people and then get all the credits..

I believe that they can do so much show they want and please please dont involve me in it..i can never make myself do that coz i'm not going to cheat myself and despised myself to such extent..

I would never make it to so fake that i see how fake that people could get until their smile on their face like cracking and so disgusting!

By the way, the world had became darker day by day with such villains so WAKE UP and do the work yourself and stop pushing blame and take everything in its fair position if you are one of the hypocrites!

Just for goodness sake, learn to be more yourself unless you are born to be a doll(fakeness beauty)!

*note:if you are one person like this, i advised you faster get urself out before you sink deeper and start to kill yourself in the black fake hole..

Time reveals one's true colours...

2007-12-15T06:50:00.001-08:00

Sometimes what I assume is always not what i get..Mistakes reveal true colours... :)

2007-12-01T03:48:00.000-08:00

So sorry..As i was busy, i wasnt able to update my blog till now..

It's been a week since my birthday passed..I'm quite old but someone is older than me who ah?haha:P

Just take this chance to thank alley cats, Alixues, Benson, Clara, Mich and All MS0502 classmates for the birthday surprise!

I really love it alot..Was super touched..Now now..let me present the presents given to me and once again i thank you all again..lovelove..

next present..It was so fun..Playing detective was Rosy's favourite game..I searched for several hrs and pestered the culprit, Jo and Benson for a couple of times then haha..I still managed toOn 22 november, it was my birthday and the morning when i step into the Avid room, this first surprise was on the floor..9 pair of socks laid out to form my name..I was so surprised..another 1 of the 10th pair was hung on the wall..I was challenged to find the other one b4 i could get my find it..Thanks for the thought man..i had fun searchin..It makes my present more treasured..

Besides that, both Benson and Jo stayed back the night before to set the whole surprise up and also with the cute furnitures..It was my dream to have a doll house(by the way, my doll house is still in process of building..It's at its second storey now..haha..Wonder wld it work or not..Check out how delicate the little furniture are..I love them alot..

*Check out the first pic circled..Benson is sitting there arranging the socks..I found this frm Jo's blog :P Thanks for the effort and love man, Benson and Jo..

Then after i found the sock, Darren and Jillian tried to call me to the project room and boom, another surprise!!My Favourite green tea and red bean cake and jelly and chocolates.. Yummy!Check out the first unglam photo..As they got me a ratty pen, so I decide to imitate the rat face..haha..

The whole bag of presents and surprises filled full of love

These roses are frm Michelle :D Check out the whole load of socks..haha..There's my whole yr supplies of socks.. See my whole load of presents..Two donuts from Alixues(coz i love to eat donuts! Little Gloves specially tot by Jo who said it's for the cold queen! haha...My mickey earrings and Mirror..

Thank you all my darlings for the surprise, love, thought and everything you gave me.. lovelove..

Happy birthday Joelyn too! To Munee too!

2007-10-18T06:55:00.000-07:00

Thank you chelsea for today..You are really my best friend..

so sorry to let you worry man..

"superiority complex" is the term I learnt again frm the psychology observation..People who thinks they have the big hat on their head forgot that the hat they put themselves to seems to be too big for them..Soon they would find themselves not able to see the front view as the big hat blocks their view and they could only see the little view that is allowed by the hat..

Only word to describe them: Super pathetic..

I guess so many people are like that.. Proud to say I'm not like that..

2007-10-17T06:57:00.000-07:00

Sometimes I really feel sad being neglected..Feeling really sad when on my way back home..I know it could be my fault for being always heehaha type and someone who seems to take things lightly that people never thought of me at all..But can you please respect me sometimes?

I am not a glass you know dont skip through me like that as if i dont exist..I'm there you know..I know I might be not on your top list of friends you want, i dun care abt tt but at least please sometimes respect me at least sometimes if u dun like me or wat ever, just tell me frankly you know..Dont totally skip me like I'm of no existence..and sometimes it makes me puke see how ppl backstab each other..i never knew i was a target for tt..

sometimes I trust that there are people who dont judge through the qualities of ppl but it seems things proved me wrong one by one..sad as it seems I would never be the top quality coz tt's not wat I'm born for, my life is not for the sake of enjoying the good things, i prefer things simple and clear..I respected you alot of times and try my best to accomodate you too but it seems i was taken for granted sometimes..People always say one thing and do the other..I understand promise for some ppl are meant to be broken..

Now i understand why people wants to commit suicide for the sake of some emo stuffs..but i will not of course do that instead i would start to feel that it is time for me to grow up one more time and be more clear on the human race and the cruel..of course there are still good ppl out there but whether they are meant for me I shall see how lucky I am..

*SAD DAY ENDS HERE*I guess i have to accept that I am not meant to be born in this world..

2007-09-08T06:33:00.000-07:00

I love Tantei Gakuen Q live action(Detective Academy Q!)..I like one of Kyu's saying that suits me too and it expresses my feeling totally..

"People might say I'm too naive and pure but I choose to believe, believe in this world there are people with warm blood and hearts.."

Sya said my article on the Kano kids are too emotional and might get into trouble..

but I believe in the world, everyone is born with a warm heart and blood and emotions..My emotional article might be far too over but I believe soon people would help them..

I believe everyone in the world is kind, it only depends when they want to express it out..

2007-07-25T02:37:00.000-07:00

Why are questions with simple answers people seems to think too hard on them?

I need to raise an awareness on my blog about two international case related to children.

It's been super long that I have research and thought about this case. I have decided to step out to raise let people know more about it.

Victims: 200 Kano’s children
Effect: Side Effects leading to deaths and disabilities
Cause: Non-approved meningitis medicine, Trovan (Trovafloxacin) tested on children
Date of case: 1996
Plaintiff: Pfizer, drug maker, USA
Defendant: Nigeria Government, together with some victims’ parents

I'm not in a very good situation to comment on this because just relying on internet sources seems to be a bit not balanced and could be not fair to justice.

But my only request is that I want to convey a message just to help the kids. They are poor kids, little fragile souls and living in poverty is hard enough for them but this case seems to hurt even more. They could have live their childhood happily but the outbreak of illness and the misusage of medicine created something no one would believe. Kids either died or suffered from serious side effects like disabilities- deaf,mute etc.

It's 10 years since it happens. You could have imagine how much sufferings been done to them during these 10 years..The law suit is still carrying on.

But before waiting justice to be bought, shouldnt saving the kids more important than that?

Humans just ignore that completely. What is done is already done, ya, justice need to be bought but suffering kids should be put to the first priority. They are victims that are waiting to be saved. Shouldnt the government and the world help them first instead of wasting money on fighting who is at fault?

This is the sad story of Anas & Hajara.. (source from BBC News)

Being a soldier is Anas' dream but a rock thrown to him and smash his dream and even his life..The rock which everyone thought it was a diamond, precious diamond to save them but they didnt noe it was an rock, a deadlly rock..

Anas could never fulfil this little dream..Instead he got also horrible names that pain him and his parents. He was called the "horror" by his classmates. Because of the tragedy, his legs are weak and wobbly and his mouth was permanently drooling.. His body also tires easily..

To tell you Anas is only 4 year old when tragedy strikes..

For Hajara, her story could not have been sadder.. She lost her hearing and voice when the tragedy strike on her..Imagine yourself unable to voice out ur opinion, i dont know about you, for me, to lose my voice is one of the worst thing ever. I'm someone who loses to chat, the inability to voice my views out seems to be painful because when you are being accused, you cant defend yourself..

Hearing could also be worst..Imagine unable to hear beautiful music, what people are saying etc..

It's painful, very very painful for physical and psychological.. To tell you also, she was also four years old when such hurt happens to her..

I do not blame whose fault is it who cause this but I want people to help them..For myself, even though I'm only one self, this is only one message but once you look at this message, you are awared of such things, you tell your friends and everyone then they spread the word out..soon I believed everyone would know at least people would understand the situation..Maybe help would be attended to them soon..

They are supposed to be smiling and enjoying their childhood when young but they lost it, however, let's help them by conveying this message and I believed they would soon see the light on earth and would be saved..

Please dont let their smile disappear..

Please convey this message to your blogs, forum or anywhere online you have been to, to at least help..just one post would be enough..

Thank you :D

source from BBC News
Next one is the HIV Trial..This is more fortunate because international coverage was made..At least more people know the kids' plague..Whether who is at fault i dont know because I'm not them nor not in the country and would do no justice if I listened to the internet's source on whose fault is it, however, I'm concerned about the kids who are infected with HIV..Are they being save? This made to alot of top world news about the release of the accused Bulgarian medical team who are said to "deliberately" injected HIV virus blood to the Libya 438 children..56 kids died from that.

The case happened ten years ago..The medical team had been jailed for 8 years and pleaded not guilty all along..They actually faced a death sentence..but a deal was striked between Libya and EU to release them in exchange for the compensation agreed to pay each kid of US 1 million.. It is for their medical fees and the compensations of the sufferings by the family..

To me this is at least better..I personally think What is done had already been done, what is important is to save the kids and provide them a secured future..

2007-05-20T05:46:00.000-07:00

I firstly must apologise for my stubborness in the previous gathering with you all guys..I guess I made things worst for you all..I'm so sorry..

but I guess because for my stubborness, my choice never change since the first day i choose it..mayb on the way there are some hopes crashed but I guess it's my stubborness tt made the choice an forever part of my life..

But I hate to admit but I guess you guys have to continue to bear my stubborness n selfishness again n mayb forever..

But i guess even when one day when you never see me but I hope you remember the stubborn vegetarian girl that makes you feel guilty when you eat ur meat..hahaha.. :P

*ps: If you happen to read this entry, please help me apologise to ppl that went to the gatherin tt day..but i think it's just me reading it.. :)

2007-05-20T05:40:00.000-07:00

Where is my Mr. Daddy Long Legs? Does you even exists?

Are you considered one of the guardian angel that protects your love ones?

Can I be one of them?

But in the first place, does you even exists in the world?

If you exist, could you just show yourself n dont hide, just tell me about yourself..

I would not promise not to hide from you and mayb we can be better friends?

Please come out before I regret..

2007-05-11T09:24:00.000-07:00

Can I say sth?I feel terrible man, it's my worst ever..

I warn you if the text below involves you, you wld read at ur own consequences, n the below text represent how i feel, mayb it's nt ur fault but i dun care i would still say it out..

I hate it!stop ur hypocrisy!if you wanna eat the food, just eat n shut up..dun shout u dun wanna eat then you eat it..I HATE LIES N PRETENDING..

Mayb i'm pretending too..I could have stop it, i swear i wanted to stop ppl from doing it but it seems even ppl around me are still doin it n they are my friends somemore..I'm actually an accomplice to the sin too..

I hate it man..Can I stop being good?coz I wanted to be selfish, why cant they go somewhere tt we can eat the stuff together like i can eat mine u eat urs..When ppl eat meat i already close one eye then they kill poor living animal creatures in front of me, n still showing the enjoying face..I understand it's natural for ppl to be selfish, food, who declines them...but I feel painful too..

But Cant i be selfish?I guess I already start to understand who is my friend who is not le at this point..Does ppl who are vegetarian always dun have friends?They are a hassle to ppl?Now now i ask if you are my friend, would you think for me or for yourself?

If you choose yourself, I'm sry I guess we are not fated to be friends..I guess I dun mind losin a friend coz u dun understand me anymore..I at least dun eat poor creatures n animals when they are at their mercy..I at least dun drink their blood n at least I'm not an murderer..

I'm not askin for people to understand now, human nature already existed this way but am I this friend your friend or just an random person..I'm sry to say so but the limit for me is there..I promise not to waste my $$ anymore to aid ppl continue kill the animals..I guess I shall start tt..I rather starve than kill..

If you ask me whether i regret or not, I tell you even till the day I die, I would never regret my choice, oh "regret" doesnt even exists in my dictionary...Just like what Mio does, if I will to rechoose my route, I would still be an vegetarian..forever n ever...even if you force me to eat meat, i would always said "NEVER"!

So to my friends out there, are you really my friend?if you choose urself, please tell me, i'm glad to let you go coz it doesnt matter whether i lost a friend or not anymore..It matters I believe myself..I guess I'm selfish too coz I choose myself too..

But I wld say selfishly if this continues, I guess I would just dissappear from the crowd..mayb you will be happpier coz I free u all n you all will never have worries anymore..Just go ahead then..I dun care anymore..I already used to it, when ppl noe tt I'm a vegetarian, they would never want to eat with me..They tried to push me around..I guess I have enough le..I rather sit with myself rather than go with you then coz you are not for me..

I WOULD NEVER EVER REGRET MY CHOICE NOT A SINGLE TIME..

2007-05-09T08:02:00.000-07:00

What is love?

LOVE SARANG SUKI AI ...

WHAT DOES IT MEANS?

I understand again the true meaning of love again..Forget about my previous post..I already forgotten it..actually it doesnt matter one person dun like me or like almost the whole world despise me..coz i noe if there's just one person who love me, treasure me, tt's actually enough to fill the whole heart..

Dont say I'm talking abt shows again, i actually just want to share..It's really really good..
I feel that it is fate that i bought this vcd coz it brings me back to my original spot the pure n unpolluted spot tt believe in pure love..The spot to believe in what I believe..

"Be with you" is really a good show, rather you could say a good storyline too..It's a treasure i would keep forever and one day, I would show to my kids it's this show that Mama learn how to love and I hope you would do so to your kids too.. Nowadays, alot of parents already forgt kids need love, not forcing them to do things they dont like..So what if they become successful when they forgot how to love.. The female lead said to the son when she about to leave which i think it is very touching..

"Yuuji, doesnt matter if you are a bad kid, it matters whether you are yourself and whether you are happy, Mama would be happy if you are happy"

A family portrait is the world beautiful photo..

I love the author who wrote this coz he also wrote alot of my favourite show one is the one I recommend earlier, "Tada, Kimi Wo Aishiteru"..There are alot when i get my pay I'm going to buy all his book to read and serve as an reminder I'm always being loved.. and it's a bliss I'm still alive..市川拓司Takuji Ichikawa, this author really teaches alot of people the word "love"..Can I request to have "Tada, kimi wo aishiteru:" VCD and book as Birthday present? hahaha..

One last thing is the answer to my question, Love is the joy of being loved and to love someone even if I will to die tomoro, I'm happy I loved once..Tt's also Mio's answer to Takumi,, even though she died giving birth to Yuuji, the love with Takumi, she never regrets it coz she said even though she never was success in the things she does but the love she gets already determine the route she choose is forever rite, even though she will to rechoose, she would choose the same route coz it's the route that she believes..

Datsuki desu!Sarang hae yo!Wo ai ni!I love you...

2007-05-04T08:55:00.000-07:00

I suddenly feel empty and sad..Why is people keep forcin me to be sumone i cant b..Everyone knows if Rosy dont talk it would be like the end of the world but sum ppl just kept dun understand y I keep talkin..

To them or rather "tt person", the person wld b happy if i shut up for life coz the on going voice of me makes the person thinks tt I'm an nuisance..I have to say it is sad i talk too much..It's sad i cant control, i talk wat i want..It's sad

To tell you, i only started to talk to ppl when I feel tt they are my pillar to life, they are like my important part of life..Friends are a piece of me..but it seems tt whenever my hand wanted to reach out to connect another person, it seems impossible..

It looks like the pic below tt, the line cld b established but the circumstances frozen it n forbidden me to cross the line..
It 's rather sad isnt it?To alot of ppl who have friends, they are lucky but for some ppl it seems forever hard coz one single hurt can leave an scar forever..

I cld actually b an introvert if I didnt open my heart to reach out an friend but it seems sumtimes, some ppl just dun understand me..I have no choice but to admit tt even though some dun understand me, mayb forever they wldnt i wldnt want to understand them too..I have to say tt "tt person" who always hurt me by saying just two words "shut up" i cld say u despise me i despise you too, you claim to be good, but have you been good have ppl really understand you, i dunno..

I cld say if i have been a nuisance to you, mayb i apologise but i have to tell you or mayb to all the ppl n friends, i'm me forever me, i wld forever talk as much as i want whether is there any ppl listenin or not coz i believe no matter whether is there ppl believe or listen to urself or not, there is always sumone who does it, the only one which is urself..But i have to say sth though there are black sheeps like you, i still have angels my other friends, no need to name them coz deep in my heart n their hearts i noe who are they, the one who truly cares for me...

As for ones who dun, nvm if you dun, i cld only say it's a pity you just lost a friend..

Let me just quote one more meaningful quote frm Yui's lyrics..

It's frm an song written by her both the lyrics n the tune..
"Life isn't simple. That's why I can live on."

This one tells my feelings now..it's frm the same song..

"I said: "I want to be loved, I just want to be loved,"
But just asking for it won't do me any good."

"There are a lot of things in my heart,
but I don't know how to express them all."

If i cld say if i talk alot of stuffs to you, it seems you are already my friend..Tt"s wat i want to say..I think i'm fine now, expressin my views..

I cld say i'm sorry i disappoint you..i decided to live independently..Mayb even though the person looks happy, it may seems the opposite..I may look strong, i cld be weak tt kind of feelin is expressed today but yes, no matter wat i wld still let every thing out, i wld nv leave it inside, tt's my principle to myself..

2007-04-28T08:39:00.000-07:00

If you will to ask me wat if one day I'm only left with one year of lifespan, what would I do?

Can i say something selfish? I would hope I would have one more simple and pure love..

The feeling of first love..

I would admit sometimes love is selfish but I hope i would at least love someone last before I died, at least I could say I love before...

But actually before I watch an movie, I wouldnt think this way but maybe I'm really hoping I would have this love feeling forever so I made an selfish decision..To love someone and to give my last love..

The movie is called...

Tada Kimi Wo Ashiteru..

Just Let Me Love You..

Please do not think it's another cheesy love story..

It's really very touching..It's been a long time since I watch such an good romance movie.. I give it 4.5 stars for both its well connected shots and story..The shots perfectly matches the connection and the development of the story which makes me feel tt each scene inside has a msg that waiting for u to discover the development..Even though I dun admit I claim alot of movie like "Crying out Love in the center of the world", Nada Sousou" ,"Be with you" etc are gd, they all seems to lack abit on the connection and the ending are all rather bad written and portrayed..These movie just connects everything well..It is the next best movie i have watched after Korean movie "sad movie" which too meet my citeria of near perfect..

I personally admit I never have an relationship before but in my point of view, it's good I never have one because only the person who never experience understand the word "pure" but of course, i said there's exception..Every one have their own kind of definition of love..

The story is about a photographer called Makoto (Tamaki Hiroshi), who travels to New York during Christmas to look for his best friend, Shizuru (Miyazaki Aoi). The two first met when Makoto attended his university entrance ceremony.

Due to his inferiority complex, Makoto tends to shy away from other people but Shizuru managed to make him open up to her. Because of their friendship, Shizuru also ended up taking an interest in photography and the two often went to a forest to take pictures.

Shizuru wants nothing else but to be by Makoto's side so when he started liking another girl called Miyuki (Kuroki Meisa), Shizuru decided that she too will like Miyuki and becomes her friend. One day, Makoto asked Shizuru what present she'd like to receive for her birthday. Shizuru, who wanted to enter a photography competition, had an idea to take a picture of the two of them kissing in a forest. Makoto agreed to do this and the two kissed for the very first time. Ever since that day, however, Shizuru disappears from Makoto's life.

Hope you would enjoy it if you happen to want to watch it..I watch it from crunchyroll..I really want to buy the DVD for this movie!!But i currently still need to save $ for an hard drive..Let see whether I could faster save enough for hard drive and buy this DVD n the WaT! My favourite Girl movie dvd at HMV..

I shall ganbatte to save more $$ frm IPP!!Ganbatte for the sake of my greedy needs..hahaha..:)

From the one and only person who seems to believe in first love..

2007-04-05T23:21:00.000-07:00

It's been very long since i update my blog..hahaha..i wanted to alot of times but my room's computer dun allow me to cause my ssl is disabled(dunno why also) so i have no choice but to update at my brother's computer when he's nt at home..

Even though it has been long since i update, i have alot to share..One of them is about this drama i watch..It's based on an true story..Every time i see its pic or listen to the song or see its book, tears would roll down naturely without any force..I think u wld roughly gt it wat's is it..Yes Yes!

It's called.....

One Litre Of Tears

1リットルの涙, Ichi Rittoru no Namida

Dun think just because it's called this name, it's those who died like tt or like some chessy love story..It's really very realistic..very very touchin..I swear every ep surely will make me cry whether it's the story, the scenes or the picture of the real girl of her struggling to live..

We ourselves are bless with an healthy life, we have an house to live, hands to use, legs to walk, food to eat and

here computers n TVs to use..We are very fortunate..She almost have it all but until one day, she gt this illness

Sinocerebellar ataxia (SCA)

1) One of the genetic disorders characterized by slowly progressive incoordination of gait and often associated with poor coordination of hands, speech, and eye movements..

2)Results in unsteady and clumsy motion of the body due to a failure of the fine coordination of muscle movements, along with other symptoms.

3) Soon, it will cause the patients to lose their coordinations of muscles n directly make the patients cannot walk, eat, write (lost movements n the usage of both hands n legs) ,talk and one more thing is they might b bedridden when it develops to the last stage and soon led to death..They would also be worse tt bladder control is bad too..

It has been more than 20 years, this illness havent found an cure and i guess in 10 ppl more than 6 ppl dont even know this illness existence..I really hope tt it cld find an cure at least it cld help these patients tt struggled..

Go to this website and if you want to know more about it..

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Spinocerebellar_ataxia

*Note: These pics below are the real heroine of the story..

Aya Kito (木藤亜也, July 19, 1962 - May 23, 1988), got this illness when she was barely 15 years old, the age where teenagers start its bloom. She kept writing in her diary to remember her experiences until she could no longer hold a pen. Aya simply wished to live until the end of her life, and the purpose of writing in the diary was to remind herself to not give up. She shed tears many times, at the same time encompassed by the rich love and support from her family and friends. Her diary 1 Litre of Tears was published shortly before her death. It encouraged many people, healthy or diseased, because of its inspiring and courageous messages. As Aya wrote,

"Just being alive is such a lovely and wonderful thing."

To me, Aya-nee chan is really brave..If i was the one diagnose with such an illness, i would have never still have the courage to live so happily..For an girl whose route is still long and bright, it's absolutely cruel to do this thing to her..But because she got this illness, so many people will encourage by her and her words..I too was encouraged.. You know this incident happen more than 20 years ago, you understand at tt time, technologies havent been this developed n humans might not be very educated so u cld have felt how much stares she got from so many people..Not only her, her family and friends too..but despite such unfortunate stuff tt happened to her, she manage to continue to be determined to write in her diary..

The Taiwan version and the original jap ver..I read abit of the book..It's very good coz' everything inside are all so detailed n realistic..

Even though in the drama there's some changes from the book, it is somehow 98% similar except for the love part, aya never have an lover like sou, it was requested by Aya's mum specially tt she hope to see Aya with an love..I guess i have to thank Chelsea and Yan Ting for this show cause it's their recommendation..I'm actually wanted to share an quote Aya wrote to her mum and it's super touching..It's very very encouraging too..

What's wrong with falling down?

Because as long as I stand up again, it'll be just fine

If you look up at the sky after falling down,
The blue sky today is also stretching limitlessly and smilling at me..

People shldnt dwell on the past,

It's enough to try your best in all that you're doing now...

We always tot of enjoying thru materialistic stuff, playing politics, worrying about results etc, but have u ask urself, did you ever fulfil ur life with dreams you dream when you are young?For me, it's still on its way on fulfilling, the volunteer work (I have to save more $$ n complete the things i started b4 i fulfil it, which i cld say it wld be few years later frm now or even 10 years but just to complete one dream, my life is already filled..One more is the dream which i wanted to b an kindergarden teacher, lawyer,detective etc..None of them are fulfiled..Abit ashame but i cld say sumtimes, it's hard to fulfil it but i guess i wld just fulfil my last dream..Be an person that is able to help ppl just like Aya nee chan..

LAST BUT NOT LEAST,

One of the two sweetest scene i love..I really think it's so good an guy that could bear n be with you when you are goin thru ur worst time of life..I hope tt i wld find such guy coz to me, most ppl oni love to enjoy the happiness n bliss they forgt tt when that love is not always sweet, it cld have it's bitterness too..

Despite difficulties of holding an pen or pencil, Aya insisted on writing her feelings n thoughts down in her diary..Because of her determination, her life seems to exist in alot of ppl hearts..

Friends, family and loved ones are all great..They help us understand the meaning of love and bliss..I would treasure them as much as i treasure my life..

Alot of people havent found the purpose of living, Aya-nee-chan even though claim she hasnt found it, i believe up there in heaven she already found it..The purpose of living is to brighten everyone's life..

This is the last quote frm Nee chan..

LIVING ITSELF IS AN BLISS..

LIVE ON..

THANK YOU, AYA-NEE CHAN..

2007-03-01T20:25:00.000-08:00

http://sg.video.yahoo.com/video/play?vid=9476ac4fb53da1871c2d5946072f5a17.1162348#

This is an super funny video on baby rabbits..even though abit lame, it cld at least make u feel happier..One thing is an sweet animals like rabbit or even huge animals like whales are killed for food or for oil or even abandoned, they are so cute n happy when at their environment however, the gd things are no longer there forever..We humans ruin alot of their environment n even killed them for our own benefits..Have u all ever tot wat if we are like the animals one day someone destroyed all our homes n deprived all our family n u are left alone..isnt it abit sad?

SPARE A TOT FOR THE ANIMALS!!Dun eat them, dun eat their food, dun ruin their precious home..I didnt ask u not to eat ur' usual food like chicken e.g. coz i noe u all are already used to tt food u cant give up tt but at least dun eat sth tt actually u can do without e.g shark fins!!!..PLEASE i beg everyone, no matter wat u start with urself 1st then u influence ur family,friends n then let it all pass around tell ppl tt at least u start u would make a difference!!!!Thank you all!!:)

2007-02-14T08:51:00.000-08:00

Frm now i wld leave some quotes or interesting stuff i saw to share..

Circus ( By Jimmy, an famous tawainese comic artist)

I really dun understand..

Letting animals jump the fire ring, wat joy can tt be to humans?Giving it an round of applause for wat it done, y nt give an free n running space..

Lettin an beast turn into an pet, wat meanin has it bring?Give it an pat y nt give it an freedom..

I really dun understand..

In my point of view,
Humans are also the animals in the circus..We are controlled by dominators of the world..Sometimes we forget animals are like us, they also have their pt of view n their feelings..We always do things tt actually didnt have an meanin to it..Even we are eager for freedom, why didnt ppl also tot the animals wld want also..

2007-02-09T19:40:00.000-08:00

What has happened to the world!why did such an sad thing happened again?Yesterday, Anna Nicole Smith was found dead in her hotel room..u mux b wonderin why i said it..i'm nt a big fan of her n i think i was nv a fan, but the news was rather shockin..i admire her braveness in an peta ad to fight the killing of animals to make them into fur coats etc..Another death has occurred..it's rather sad..she lost her son last yr now she lost herself...it's sad..

another one was the most shockin of all..I gt it this mornin..Jung Da Bin, the actress frm cool guy/he was cool( with SongSeunHeon..), attic cat (with Kimraewon) etc committed suicide..She hung herself at her friends' toilet..Why could this kind of thing happen?I tot Dabin onni was always so bubbly n cheerful..This is like U;nee, she act strong n happy but inside she is feelin the down, lost and depressed..I swear tt the happiest person is nt the happiest actually..I still cant believe the news..sobs sobs..I refuse to admit tt this is the endin for ppl who brought everyone happiness,laughter,joy, entertainment and more more love has this kind of end..Why?

http://img158.imageshack.us/img158/7351/20070210111402744e71120vo8.jpg

I now could only hope all of them R.I.P..i hope they are all smiling and feel painfree nw in heaven..

2007-01-29T07:16:00.000-08:00

I cant believe my eyes and mind..It's year 2007, there shld b more happier stuffs happened!Why is there so many deaths happenin?I understand the ones died because they are the pretty n talented angels tt the God cant bear to wait for them to return to heaven..it's kinda sad when u noe the age of the angels and their feelin of their fans..Death is an common happenin tt u will experience no matter wat but why so early...I understand human is actually an fagile animal..Even though of this, i decide to learn frm Aya's spirit! She is Aya the author for this drama n bk called 1 litre of tears(it's an real person)..Living itself is an bliss..We shld treasure it..

first was U;nee,even though i dont know her alot, until someone shown her pics on soompi..I think she is pretty n i was wow by her dance moves..I admit the genre of music n style is nt mine but i think she is talented..It's sad for her to noe she is an daughter tt wasnt her dad's legal daughter(i think u shld understand but i 4gt the term for this, shld b starts with i)..She wrote her feelings in a song called dad i think..

To actually know, she committed suicide because of depression partially caused by anti-fans who criticise her for bein an "fake","wearin so scandily with no grace" etc..This are still the common ones..there are even worst ones..You noe it's true fans as an consumer gt the power to change an star but no right to indirectly kill a person..Criticise constructively not brainlessly..She is an poor victim of anti-fans' boycott..

http://photo-media.hanmail.net/200701/22/dailian/20070122011003.572.0.jpg
http://photo-media.hanmail.net/200701/21/mydaily/20070121190621.698.0.jpg

She is only 26 years old..Her new album was goin to release the day after she died..It's an tragedy tt we all fans of our stars mux rmb, nt to criticise other stars no matter how u hate her/him..Coz u cld b an murderer next..It also shown how famous/ higher the person is, he/she cld b super lonely because jealousy might arised..It also show no matter hwo happy a person may looks, he/she might b cryin inside but if no ones noes wldnt tt be abit sad..i understand because the person dun want love ones to worry so they kept in their heart until one day it burst..Nv bear ur feelings inside coz doesnt matter if i's nt cured, at least u tell it out sumone share the burden with u..Also for ppl who are very joyful everyday, share the joy n help someone carry the burden.. makes an diff..:)

Another is an korean comedian tt died on the same day with U;nee..She gt injured in an accident and gt into an coma then she pass away..She bought alot of joy to everyone..She is an loss too to be let off..For a person who was everyone root to happiness, she cld b too kind tt's y god bought her back to heaven..it was rather sad tt these kind of stuff happen..She is also very young, oni 25 years old..

Another one is nt an showbiz but just an normal girl tt used to b with an artiste..tt's y her news was known..She committed suicide..Not alot of details was known becaus ef her identity..but she was bought to the news because on her ex was an famous celeb..She committed suicide becuase she was abandoned by him said by her family..but the male artiste said tt it was she whu initiated the whole thing..Sad isnt it?u died for ur love(u tot it is) then he/she deny tt this is the story..it's sort of unworthy but mayb this is life..the value of things vary for diff ppl, oni u might treasure it..it's an lesson too..Not to be too sad for love..u might say i say it too easily but i too experience it b4..mine was sort of an life-death situation also..but i think it can nv happen again..why nt start brand new again for him n for self!Live happier and stronger for him and for urself n for ur concerned love ones!

Another one i oni gt known it just now is taiwan actress Beatrice Xu Wei Lun..An very pretty girl even though i oni seen her in secretly in love with you and this show on pool ball, she is really an pretty,demure and kind girl..I saw her play piano n harp, i think she is very talented..She pass away after an huge crash of her car n i think she was flung out of the car n it cld have hit her head..she was in coma for 2days n she died durin an operation the doctors are revivin her for 2 hrs n in the end, she didnt wake up n pass away..it's sad isn it..so young she is oni 29years old..she recently just finish her drama called sun's daughter..I cried when i noe the news,even though i wasnt totally her fan, i felt it's such an pity she left the world but mayb it's gd coz she is free of pain..Sad is tt her parents n siblings are all in this tragedy..She has alot of celeb friends like Rainie Yang Cheng Ling,Cyndi Wang, Zhang Shan Wei, Shi Yi Nan etc.. Somemore Cyndi, ZSW,SYN were near to her,they saw her for the last time n nv tot this wld b their last sight to see her alive..So sad..it's a big loss she was taken away!

I wish all of them R.I.P..I noe committin sucide is an sin in the christinality n catholic but, can i wish tt they go to heaven not to hell because of the reason behind the death?Please god!I really think it wld b even more sad if they went to hell despite all tt sufferings b4..As for the two artistes whu died frm accident, may they b happy in heaven, free of pain, full of joy..I have learnt no matter wat worst stuff strike me, i decided to live strong!Smile no matter wat like Aya, i can cry but i must tell tt after the cry it wld b sunny again!

Love all my friends,family & all..May everyone treasure ur life well..Treasure ur love ones daily..:)Smile always..

2007-01-18T22:19:00.000-08:00

I'm so so sad..i failed my driving test...even though it's first atempt i noe i wldnt pass but i'm angry i nid to spend more $$..waste money lo..but no choice since i step the dug..i nt angry i failed,i'm angry why i so nervous n why previous mistakes gone n new mistakes appear..Why i so careless n screwed it..i think i shld pass next time!!I HOPE!!..hahaha..
$154.40 per drivin test plus the revision?$$$ all wasted!!!:(

Thx for almost everyone for the support n encouragement for it!!I'm sry i dissapointed u all..but i will do it next time!! Sobs!I lose to my brother..i swear mux win him in passin first..but..hahaha..nvm korkor, igve u this la..i give u this honour lo,i will nt for studies though..:)

AND also i expect sumone to wish me but in the end, dun have.whu's the friend whu's nt,it's clear in the mind i wld be friends with whu forever..hahaha.

LOVE U ALL!!THX ALOT ONCE AGAIN!!can i organise a fund for raisin the car drivin test $$?hahaha..PLZ donate to me few dollars!!i nid ur support...PLZ call 1900-228-5252...hahaha..

2007-01-05T07:10:00.000-08:00

I'm so deeply,madly in love with this manga n anime called OURAN HIGH SCHOOL CLUB!This story touches me and cracks me laughin frm the chair..I love it alot..I like its main story n its sub story especially Tamaki's story..I'm cryin now because i noe more abt his background and I'm fortunate to say both my parents love me and they are still with me..SPOILER ALERT!!!

How cld such an cheerful kid have such an sad background!Why did the evil grandmother separates he and his mum..The Grandmother scared of not havin an heir so she cld do this?She is so selfish..To think even the kindest person on earth,Hunny senpai also hates her..You noe how terrible she is..She fails as an mother,an woman and an grandmother.. She hates Tamaki but she allows him to come back to Japan just for the successor..If she can controls ppl,she be the heir itself..She even dun like him step into the first mansion tt she n the father lives in(it means an dispise of status to Tamaki!!!!)I'm so angry..I saw terrible ppl but she's the worst..The ugliest!The ugliest person does the most cruel things on earth to separate an person from his/her loves ones...

To think after so many hurts and insult(She calls him dirty thing and deny the touch from him,she hates an contact with him!),Tamaki is still so cheerful and strong..He still cld be so protectful of an person..I'm so touched..I'm cryin non-stop..Sry if u think i'm an idiot who cries for these..It may b just an story..but I understand the story is happenin at some part of the places..It teaches me at the end of the day, no matter how much pain n hurt ppl give u, by the next day it wld b another nice day another nice day u shld happily treasure!!You cld understand this if u suffer any worst things in ur life..You shld tell urself this no matter what..Coz life still goes on..You gets hurt ur loves one get hurt..

For happlier stuffs,I love Tamaki not because of his looks too..He's cute n is the male lead i admit..but i dun mind if he's ugly..Coz i think i really like his char alot..Cheerful,caring,he possess this kindness and characteristic tt other members dun have which is the aim to make ppl feel blissful and happy..I want to do tt too..I tell cold jokes but i dunno whether is it funny to ppl or stupid to ppl or irritatin to ppl..I jus wan ppl to laugh or smile..but it seems hard it's so hard..But i wld look up to tamaki as an role model to life..He may seems like an happy idiot but he's actually super kind,super nice and super perfect..The only inperfect thing is his looks!!I perfer if he's not so cute..haha..I like his carefree char too..I really in love with this kind of ppl..Who contributes yet dun wan anyhting in return..

*ps:Everyone shld faster go watch this show..If u like it,i think u already understand part of life,u already understand the root to happiness..If u think it's stupid(pin-pointin to someone!whu ah?:P),i guess u take things too serious until u forget what is life..You take life as an career,u forgt bliss is taken frm daily n little things, even an little present ppl give u is an token of bliss..believe me or not,an min of laughin is gd for health..Msyb u think i'm an idiot..At least I'm an happy and chirpy idiot!I dun mind the idiotness,i mind the ignorance..:)

Another thing..Kyoya this guy actually shares the same bdae as me..Another famous bdae!!hahaha..He's cool and looks cold on the outside but deep inside it's warm super warm..i like this kind of ppl too..the innocence the pretend to lie the gd things they do n pretendin they are the bad guys,they are the kinds actually..They understand the meanin of givin not takin..

Enjoy some blissful pics..
The characters pic in the manga..The anime one is better because it's full colour..

The top pic is Haruhi,the female lead who gt into the Host Club by accident..You will noe if u go watch or read..hahaha..

Tama-chan in full colour..cute rite?but i prefer the idiot photos below..It's so cute..It's the real char..

So cute rite?It's the incident he touches the cold king,Kyoya,he is his true and first best friend..This is the real Kyoya and Tamaki..He makes ppl like theirselves and not dispised themselves..This pic make me feel warm..

Their Group Pic..

2006-12-23T01:44:00.000-08:00

Check out this video on this amusement park in Japan where u have to rescue an cat to
able to be in the amusement park it's so cute...
I bet it's the paradise for all cat lovers..The Alley Cats wld like it..I hope when we have the $$, we go there and played..It's so cool lo..

Clara wld also liked it, it's ur cats' paradise..hahaha

2006-12-22T08:17:00.001-08:00

Blessann asked me abt this horoscope website url and then i went to the search engine n find, once again i'm curious abt the ppl whu shared the same bdae as me..Do we think the same?Actually even though we might b born in the diff eras, i found out the char might b somehow close..

I found the things from here
http://www.born-today.com/Today/11-22.htm

I loved this person who shared the same bdae as me tagline
"Believe those who are seeking the truth. Doubt those who find it."

This is his profile..
* Andre Gide
(11/22/1869 – 02/19/1951)
French writer

The tagline it's so me, i like to do things not ppl told me to do,believe things wat ppl dun believe..Believe myself and doubt others..hahahaha..

Headstrong - Freedom-Loving - Playful
Tt's really me..I prove to myself i mustnt fail the goals I set like the volunteering to overseas..I really mux fulfil it even at verge of death..I'm stubborn abt my beliefs too, i dun care wat u said i care wat i said..hahaha..

Freedom-lover
I dun like restrictions nor rules..I hate to b forced..I do things my way..I love freedom i enjoyed it..I demand it with my will and wits..

Playful
No one dun like the word "Fun"..I'm quite prankful, I scared ppl thru their fears, i make fun of them..But surprisingly, I nv laughed at them..

Do you believe this?I dun believe..I nv believe love is planned like wat dates is ur perfect match wat day is the best day for u to date..Love is not planned,it slips to u secretly..But if u fall under this range plz register with me at this tt..hahhaha..just kidding..

You Are Drawn to People Born on...
Easy, subtle attraction and harmony: You don't feel an irresistible pull towards each other, but over time, appreciate the peace you have between you. These people are good for you, although they might not challenge you to grow.

January 18-25, March 16-26, July 16-26, September 18-27

On-again, off-again attraction. This is a complex connection, and you make an odd yet interested couple.

April 18-22, June 18-22, October 21-25, December 21-25

A mysterious attraction that can be very romantic...or completely platonic! This is a spiritual connection that has a magical quality to it.

January 10-14, March 3-7, August 5-9, September 28-October 2

Opposites attract. Push me, pull me. You could complement each other well if you allow yourselves to learn from each other, or you could actively war against each other.

May 16-26

Attraction of the soul; challenging, intense, rich, and binding.

January 1-4, October 10-14, December 31

Powerful, tumultuous attraction--you are aware of the distinct differences between you, but may be drawn to each other because of the simultaneous awareness of a need and a lack. Either the relationship is ongoing and obviously tumultuous and of a "love-hate" nature, or it flows well until it breaks unexpectedly.

January 5-9, February 15-25, April 3-7, July 4-8, August 16-26, October 5-9, November 17-27

Creative, communicative, inspiring, and spiritually rewarding connections.

January 31-February 4, April 12-16, June 24-28, September 7-12

But i dun deny I nid a man tt is an easy-goin person, a man tt dun controls me, i dun controls him..but he wld not bothers wat is my thinkin but instead for my welfare..Even though i found one tt is close to this, i think we can nv end up 2gether coz i think he already have sumone..but who cares..if it's ur type but he/she already has someone, so wat dun care tt y he/she's not urs but instead care whether he/she is blissful n accep both of u are not fated..Move on..I heck him already coz i think y waste time for someone whu might not even enter ur life..hahaha..I'm abit selfish..hahahah..

if u wan to know more abt ur life next yr, try this website..
http://www.cafeastrology.com/birthday/
About ur char/famous ppl of the same bdae
wikipedia.org(then type ur bdae inside n u wld see wat's falls under ur bdae)
http://www.cafeastrology.com/birthday/iftodayisyourbirthday.html

Wat..I found tt i might do these next yr n it's not surprised!!
It is rather common to marry, have children, graduate college, increase your income, do freelance work, get a promotion, publish a book, or receive public recognition under this influence.

2006-12-21T06:45:00.000-08:00

I saw this url in clara's blog so i go see..Guess wat I see..I think it's super funny..I might get mental disorder soon..hahaha..I'm an weird person..Beware of me..

Personality Disorder Test Results

Paranoid	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	50%
Schizoid	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	70%
Schizotypal	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	66%
Antisocial	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	54%
Borderline	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	46%
Histrionic	\|\|\|\|\|\|	26%
Narcissistic	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	34%
Avoidant	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	34%
Dependent	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	58%
Obsessive-Compulsive	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	42%

Take Free Personality Disorder Test
personality tests by similarminds.com

try it and laugh how you as a person..

2006-11-26T01:50:00.000-08:00

I'm feeling empty and abit lonely after i wtch nobuta wo produce..Yamapi is so so cute ,kind and sweet...sry but yes, i cant deny he's cute...He's so sincere in making friends and protectin nobuta...

I'm thinkin if there's an guardian angel for me too (of coz needless to say,no nid to b gd lookin)but is there any?Mayb there is one but i did not notice..I'm been thinking am i like Kame(Shunji)? Actually, didnt want to offend ppl tt's y we wanted to b kind and treat ppl as if we are so close?Am I like tt? i dunno!Am I truthful to ppl?Do I have any friends(I answered already,The AC are all my friends!!)?but is there anymore? Plz dun get me into politics k?Or dun get inside politics k?I hate politics since i know life...It can get to no where!!Just treat life and things in its nature way..I being bullied i dun mind,i dun get things i dun wan i dun care and if i lost everything,i still have my self!When I did sth wrong, is there still friends tt believe me?

After watching nobuta, I feel the motivation to take things in its nature way,one things most impt is tt luckily i'm born medium-income grp,orelse mayb i might b in Akira's shoes whether to take over the company frm my dad..tt kind of stuff..I'm crazy coz i dun love money too much..I feel blessed at least i'm able to have the AC..but i'm still thinkin do i still nid a bf when i have friends?Mayb it comes after i finish my volunteerin?mayb i jus nid friends and my family!!Lonely soul it is hard to bear?

The mystery have not yet to be solved...

2006-11-22T07:07:00.000-08:00

OMG!! I cant believe i press quit when i havent type finish,i lost all my text...but nvm i wld rewrite some 2dae,more 2morrow..

A letter to all my darlings

Dear Jillian,Chelsea,Candy,Joelyn(A.k.a Alley Catties), Sya, Blessann,Alixues, Mingyi,Clara and all classmates who wished me happy bdae...

Thank all of you for the presents and wishes,Rosy LKK liao..Old but dunno who older than me ah(WHO AH?!)hahaha...

I'm so so happy!! I'm happy even though there's oni wishes...i'm ok wif anything as long as it's sincerity... As for the presents, i love it alot..Thx alley catties grantin my wish, make me wif Siwon oppa!!Not Rosy dun like man, actually Rosy love it madly,the photo of siwon is so cute...Thx darlin also for the bikinis..Wah!Rosy is a conservative girl man, bikini abit over for Rosy but I wld wear the cute n conservative way!!fear not,my body even though not very nice,wifout the curves, i sumday wld wear lo!! It was so naughty...N also the two dangles by jo,it's so cute..so ling ling lang lang...hahaha...i luv it..

Siwon oppa and Rosy...hahaha...it's so cute n funny..

the sexy and hot bikini..Rosy still considerin how to wear it wif n really use it to swim??hahaha..u mux understand the country bumpkin whu nv wore or buys a bikini b4..hahaha...LKK..

The two cute dangles

AND Blessann, Alixues,Mingyi,Clara n Chels' present...The 18 balloons was so sweet and cute...It's all ur hard work and love...I really luv it,see how i protect it as 3 balloons break,i was so sad...nvm,the love and sincerity is still there...I love this...Next is the 10YANYAN,it's funny and so much better n cuter than the cake...Plz Rosy have been eatin cake since mornin...it wld b so fattenin when Rosy eat another cake...Think the calories!!.haha..:P

the ten YANSYANS,one missin..N the culprit is Jillian Yue Ai Lian!!Stole my Yanyan shld have collect the $$...Damn it!!hahaha..
The bdae card is so cute WE ARE LOOKING FOR SOMEONE WITH A BIG HEART!(Be a Clinical Research Volunteer!)hahaha...a cute card man,i luv it...

Check out the balloons..so sweet,so many hearts...I quite scared it wld burst again so introducin the 5 balloonsguard..
1.Qoo big cushion
2.Tigger(proudly given as a bdae present by the alley dogs(mich.hon,clor n jac...)last yr It's still the same,chubby,healthy,happy and bouncy!!
3.The aeroplane campaign cushion(proundly taken as a free gift by the surveys done by Jill and jo)
4.PiyoPiyo and the bulldog(i noe it's abit obscene wif the duck on an dog but the bull dog is too short to protect so i have to add a duck to make it taller..

hahha...THX ALL OF YOU, I REALLY LOVE ALL OF U...
THX EVERYONE FOR ENDURIN MY COLD JOKES...
LOVE YA...
ROSY A.K.A COLD RAT...

THX FOR THE PRESENTS!!

2006-11-16T07:22:00.000-08:00

I never feel so good coz actually instead of bein angry now,i take things easier,knows wat i really want most..but i'm gonna say it's hard to face the truth but it's not hard to understand tt the truth exists...I dun wan ppl to think wat i'm thinkin i dun wan ppl to know tt they are the ugly coz i understand failure is hard to take...i'm a stubborn person..i dun take things as it is,beautiful is wat ppl wan, they dun wan ugly,they dun wan the losin side...nvm,i understand, did i say my results sux n i still dun reveal wat i gt?It's the same...

but have u ever tot ppl already starvin their stomachs n dyin ,their main concern is livin,why our common aim is to do well n have gd results,mayb one day i shld really go understand..tt's my motive,nv think u can change everything unless u can change urself,i still havent achieve tt,cant really have the right to say but i really think sth, u shld let go,experience to understand, not to know,whu dun know ppl are sufferin in the world,whu dun know?i think it's just u choose to take up the biz or not,i choose my way to care,but i dun really wan to care n restrict so much,i shld learn to let go abit sth n close my eyes..coz holdin it doesnt mean u have it,know it long enough(EXP) doesnt mean u noe it..

i dunno,i dun like the fact mayb ppl ARE goin wrong way..but i understand it's not like u say they wld understand...jus like for once i try to advise sumone not to drink too much coffee coz it's not really it's anyone's fault mayb if u care for ppl too much, they think sumthings is not wat i think,they say dun think tt u noe ppl,yup after tt incident i decided not to b to KP coz it dun do me gd,i shld jus let ppl have their biz,i do my own..i really tink if u let go, u r lettin got the stuff u tink use to b impt n actually it's empty..it's time i let go n do things i like,money is impt but not as impt as u think,when pride,money,proudness,time,self-concious mind think affect u,u might think tt u have everything but if the higher u go,the loneier u are...they say i have so much things but u focus on this ppl wld live u..Once again i say i'm not kind,not watever u say..i'm jus me,i decide whu i am,wat way i go...i dun care wat u say now...coz i understand it's time to go another chapter when the book stop its pg..it's time to not think wat u always think,do it if u want..

I think becoz of a JERK(yes u not lookin wrongly)i think it's just a term,ok la,i might nid to thx or lettin me confirm my tots..but he's really not the guy tt i wld want, sumones whu took pride impt than everything..i dun care if he's famous,successful or just downway failure, he makes me more sure tt when a person it's inferior,they tend to feel great thinkin they are good,i hate the point,mayb u are rite u r the person tt thinks u noes everything but actually u are jus coverin up...i definately hate this kind of person mayb wld chang ewhen i grows up more, but deep inside my heart i'm depisin him,thinkin tt he's a saint where u want to show ur gd deeds, it is no longer a gd deed, the more u tryin to defend urself, i noe wat's bad deed u have done..i think i was the least happy when he said i think to study more n do more things to understand,ok whu's the one whu's lookin on the age,age is nth,it's a no....n u smoke n stil dare to say u change ppl,i guess u love the enjoyment ppl put u up,hates it when ppl put u down...u are pathetic...life is urself,u can help ppl u think when u cant help urself?

i think everyone shld jus think but 5 secs wat they really want if it is i bless u coz it's ur route n ur life,dun care mine,i dun care urs..just take care of urself la, I'm not the person who loves the joy of reprimanded or even the joy of hardship...I just be myself n care oni for the ppl i shld care...The AC i luv u!!U all are the best...

2006-11-03T04:31:00.000-08:00

Haha...I was bored n i went to this website to check horoscope it's quite true on the careers side,Ialways want to be a lawyer when i was in pri sch,i started readin bks since i went to find it,i'm really interrested..but the reason wen i tot when was in pri sch why i want to be a lawyer is it can earn alot of $$,hahaha...but nw i change i been thinkin lawyers always give ppl a stern feelin,they are like so cool to even smile to u but i totally disagree!!!There are lawyers tt are so noble,let me ask you a qns,r u able to give up the high salary in a law firm,posh life,all luxury to help poor ppl whu cant hire a lawyer,whu thinks the rich are surely gonna win coz they are of lowly status,no one gonna help them?Life is interestin,i dont like of status to be measured by money,i dont want a gd life, i wan to let ppl have a gd life i sit there n b happy for them...hahaha...but one thing i'm gonna say dun say i'm noble i not dun say i'm far too nice,i'm not...It's ppl whu are nice tt inspired my life,nt myself so i'm not a nice one,i'm just followin the nice...i wan to be a lawyer tt cld help ppl get out frm poverty,jus becoz they dunno anything doesnt mean they are easy to be "bully"..How many honest ppl are cheated...I wan justice to be bought ,even though it can not be really true in most country,i'm happy I'm in S'pore coz a tiny little injustice is brought,not tt it sounds i'm bootlickin but believe me go out n see how many ppl died or robbed of their lifes n died in silence n might not even be able to rest in peace..

Psychologist is one true one coz i'm hopin to able to understand human b4 i went to volunteer or else it's hard to counsel ppl when i cant counsel myself...

police,detective is actually true to some extent as i'm a sensitive person n suspicious person...i wanted to be an detective tt help ppl find lost family members even though i nv lost a loved one, i cld understand ppl whu lost theirs coz do you understand when u feel loved,n u loved someone but one day the love is gone coz the person is missin,everyone has a story to him/herself,i'm hopin to help them write an gd endin to make the love long love...hahaha..police has the same motive as lawyer to bring justice down!!

Soldier,Research scientist,surgeon is out...First i'm bad at sports n has a bad stamina...i'm easily nervous when something is persuin me..Second is my science is bad mayb the oni thing i can do is think of the concept of new things...third is i'm scared of organs with blood,i know it sounds stupid but it's the truth,i'm scared of major surgery where a life is at ur' hands,i'm nt scared of responsibility but scared of the possibility A LIFE IS IN MY HANDS!!!

ON THE CHAR PART IT'S QUITE TRUE BUT ONE SENTENCE ANNOY ME"You discard friends when they start to bore you."WAT!!So one day i wld abandon myself when i'm borin?!But it's true i really take every comment in my heart,esp the bad ones like ppl insultin me,i cld be so sad for one wk or even a mth,to me physical pain is no painer than emotional pain...You can beat me till i cry but once u scold me, i straight away cry..I'm really sensitive tt's why when u lied to me,i can nt sense it unless u told me...I'm prone to liver, kidney diease is true coz i'm a heavy taste person n i eat the weirdest food tt ppl dun accept...I'm to prone to heart diease coz i'm easily hurt coz i'm sensitive to every single word ppl say..you cld say i'm easy rmbin the bads n gds of ppl...

I'm a human too, i found out ppl tt was born same day as me share the same instinct n thinkings...WOw,first i found Scarlett Jonhson,i was like omg,hahaha...quite surprised but i'm not sexy like her,i cld understand why she said she loved older mans,because we nov 22 babie love guys whu are amtured, down to earth we want a secured life,we dun wan cute guys tt exists for the beauty not brains...haha..but of coz not all young cute guys are not mature it's some,josh harnett is surprisingly one,mayb when u know the real world at such an young age,u understand more of ppl...Scarlett is a down-to earth girl..I'm surprised Charlene choi frm twins is one too...
Somemore to add..the nov famous ppl
Boris Becker, born November 22, 1967 German tennis pro.

Jamie Lee Curtis, born November 22, 1958 Actress.

Charles de Gaulle, born November 22, 1890 General, politician.

Doris Duke, born November 22, 1912 Heiress.

George Eliot, born November 22, 1819 Female writer, used a male pen name.

Billie Jean King, born November 22, 1943 Tennis pro.

It's never too late to be who you might have been...
George Eliot
One must be poor to know the luxury of giving...
George Eliot
One must be poor to know the luxury of treasure..
Rosy Lim
wahhaha..

General character:
Scorpio (the scorpion) is intense and powerful. Although you appear controlled and calm, you are emotional and energetic. Scorpios often have strong and penetrating eyes. They seem fun to be with socially, but some seem self-involved and withdrawn. You can recognize your special qualities and it requires self-control to prevent you from using them for bad reasons. In relationships, you can be passionate and overwhelming. You are also very sensitive and take almost every comment to heart. You discard friends when they start to bore you.

Romantic character:
The opposite sex holds a fair deal of attraction to you but you should be careful in your dealings with them as you usually end up in unpleasant situations, because of the zeal and determination with which you tackle relationships with the opposite sex. Be friendly by all means, but treat the person like one treats a rose. Enjoy its glory, but do not crush its petals. You will find more satisfaction. You cannot be faithful for too long and this will not only destroy your reputation, but also remain a painful memory all your life.

Important Information on Scorpions:

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Good career choices for you are:

Surgeon
Psychologist
Soldier
Research scientist
Police
Detective
Spy
Lawyer
* Scorpions are prone to liver and kidney problems.
* Your ruling planet: Pluto.
* The scorpion is associated with Scorpio.
* Your lucky color: dark red or maroon.
* Your lucky gemstone: opal.
* Your lucky numbers : 2, 7, 9.

Numerology(acc to)
Number Four(it's so true,4 is a gd no. tt brought me luck n hope..)

This is the worker. Practical, with a love of detail, Fours are trustworthy, hard-working, and helpful. Ruled by Uranus.

Keywords: trustworthy, helpful, steady, logical, self-disciplined, problem-solving. If expressed negatively: contrary, stubborn, narrow.

As lovers: Although steady and generally trustworthy, Fours can be quite emotional and frustrated if they feel caged in. They tend to need some level of confrontation in their love lives. A relationship that stagnates will bring out their contrary nature. They love to solve problems, and if allowed to "take on" and tackle predicaments, they are very loyal lovers.

You are headstrong yet warm and playful. Very active, you don't like to feel caged in by anyone or anything! You carve your own unique path in life, playing by the rules when necessary, but refusing to give up your individuality in the process. Although ambitious in many ways, you don't feel the need to play games in order to win approval. Straightforwardness is important to you, but you are not an open book either. Your opinions are as strong as your will and determination.

The Sun represents vitality, a sense of individuality and outward-shining creative energy.

Sun in Scorpio

Scorpios are known for their intensity. They are determined folk that absolutely throw themselves into whatever they do -- but getting them to commit to something is rarely an easy task. In fact, it's better not to even try to "get them" to do anything. Solar Scorpios absolutely have their own mind. And, their primary motivation is unlikely to be prestige (like their Capricorn friends), or even authority (Leos can have that, too)--it's real power. Their power can absolutely be of the "behind the scenes" variety, just as long as they have it.

To others, Scorpios seem to have plenty of willpower. They probably do. Scorpios do know what they want, and they won't go out and grab it at the wrong moment. They simply sit back, watch (quite expertly), and then get it only when the moment is just right. This apparent patience is simply their powerful skills at strategy at work. Scorpio isn't afraid of getting their hands (their bodies, their minds) dirty. The darker side of life intrigues them, and they're always ready to investigate.

Scorpios simply never give up. They have tremendous staying power. They're not in the slightest intimidated by anybody or anything. Confrontations are not a problem. In fact, talk to any Scorpio about their lives, and you'll probably be in awe at all they've gone through. Trauma seems to follow them wherever they go. When Scorpio learns optimism, instead of expecting the worst, they'll find that they possess amazing regenerative powers -- the power to heal, create, and transform.

2006-10-22T04:30:00.000-07:00

I changed my blogskin...Omg!!I think i really watched n understand alot of things in my life..I found my ideal guy totally(i mean the type,nt really found)...

I finished watchin My Girl
(gt leejunki,he's still the same emotional one inside as like Prince n the clown)(there's this char inside called Jinkyung,he's so cute,pure,blur,caring,protectin,he looks like 2nd Bryan Cheng Yuan chang,tall model piece,cold sumtimes...did everything to protect the girl,so easy to content n he precious the thing given by his dream lover,just an orange n he precious it so much n he's so funny when the orange was squashed by sumone he even uses the needle to sew it back...He's so lovin lo,so cute in a way,silly one too...sewin an orange,but it shows he loves her as it's her 1st "gift" for him...haha..but i think he's the one tt's unique in the qualities of my character in my script...))

He's the binoculars of her!!No matter wat she wants to see,he lets her see

Sry I luv You
It's just so sad show, i cried almost every ep why,coz it's so touchin,i believe havin a love like ur life is so strong in power,when he dies,she dies...it's really taught me love,i dun wan love tt's romantic,flowers here,then non-practical things,even though girls want tt,i wanted in the past too...i found out it's far too nt real,flowers wither,the love might wither too..A strong love is harder to get than gettin a guy tt's cute,tall,romantic,but i felt after so many dream world,it's shld b time for reality...

Lovin the girl is the bestpresent she gt...u can use ur ways to make her happy,protects her with the true heart,ppl sae they wan an excitin love,they dun wan borin guys,but if a person tt's fun,coolest guy in sch/or anywhere loves u lesser than u loves him or a guy whu's borin but loves u more than u loves him,whu wld u choose?i personally choose the 2nd one,it's really hard for sumone to luv u more,when he luvs u more,he does all things to make u happy,the one tt's u luv might b just an empty shell..tt's wat woohyuk(the male lead in SILU(a.k.a Misa)luvs Eunchae(female lead) more than she does n knows tt she luvs the other guy,choiYun,he refuses to let her go coz he luvs her,but then he leats her go to fulfil to really let go n wishes her the best wif the other guy...If u know the girl dun likes u wld u still carry on n woo her or wld u set her free n b her guardian angel,protects her when she's in trouble...i understand love is no longer tt sacrificin or ppl wld nt sacrifice themselves anymore but i believe the root is still there,the love..no ones doesnt knows wat's love is..

I think my another aim to continue to live in the world is to still b able to love my family to b able to luv siwon oppa...

SoJisup is so cute...He's so real, nt a typically cute but a person whu can express himself well when he luv the person.I watch him in Glass Slippers long time ago,i felt frm a young man he grew into a mature,true,uncouth yet real man tt i'm so impressed...He's in my marry list:p!!hahaha...
The sad yet "happy" endin coz she dies after when Woohyuk(sojisup) dies...N besides his grave..I think it's a sad endin coz both the leads die..but it is a strong meanin on wat love is like..

When she's lonely, u accompany her
When She feels scared, u protect her..
When You see her cryin or being sad, You are sad too tt ur heart is achin,u went to comfort her..
When she dun smiles,u try all the ways u cld to make her smile..
This is the one n only love tt he oni wants to have...

Spring Waltz
i said in previous x 2 posts how's it's like...childhood love,tt's the purest luv,i had one too but of coz we are jus frenz coz we r still youngx100000,we didnt know anything...THEIR QUOTES IN THE SHOW IS PURE TOO...

LOVE MUST BE WAITIN FOR ME SOMEPLACE FOR ONE DAY WE WOULD MEET AGAIN..
CONTINUE TO LOVE N MISS TT PERSON,LOVE WILL COME AGAIN, JUST LIKE A GAME OF HIDE N SEEK
NO MATTER WHERE IT HIDES OR EVEN U CANT SEE IT,IT MUST BE WAITIN AT SOMEPLACE FOR ME
PLZ LET ME SEE HIM ONCE,JUST ONCE,JUST ONCE ONLY,I PROMISE ONCE I SEE HIM,I WOULD NOT SAY ANYTHING,I WOULD JUST HIDE MYSELF UNTIL YOU REALLY COULD FIND ME..

In process of watchin Lovers' in Prague(found my type of guy there)

It adds another place to visit in my dictionary...Prague or Praha in czech lang..This lovely city in Czech Republic,shows me another side of the world,Prague is indeed an romantic place ppl describe,European countries have a diff culture n taste to our Asian countries...They have an rich stories in every stuff..One impt thing is He's down to earth!!!!!

As for the ideal guy,he's nt cute at all,nt refined(alot of times he scolded vulgurties),devoted to his love,true and honest..He's just not the cute Siwon oppa instead someone,whu's opposite Siwon...He's like nt really gentleman but actually he did all his cld to jus protect the female lead..

Cloud Stairways..
Felt like watchin ChilliSis,Banolim2,suju show lots more...I love watchin shows it's like my forte, n believe it or nt,my "real" life started wif tv...

2006-09-15T00:38:00.000-07:00

I manage to pass all my subjects but the results wldnt as gd i tot....mayb i cldnt cope wif stress...packed wif icas n tests n exams my brain cant seeem to hold so many stuffss..i wld wan to try but they wldnt let me to mayb i wasnt suitable for the course at all...

i'm sumone whu lack self-esteem which i think "media" is really so nt me now...i regret choosin this course coz i really dont like mgment...if i luv biz, i wld have choose it long time ago...i shld have wasted my results n go for sth i wan child psychology...i'm trapped in confusion whether tt is this a right choice..mayb i shld jus bear one n more yrs to overcome the challenges...i think mayb i jus wait a while n see the outcomes if it's still the same...mayb the cert wld b in my hall of fame collectin dust or mayb it wld b growin into a "U" cert/"masters"/anything gd..

mayb there's no choice at all, once I dropped into the hole, i no longer can free myself n climb out...nvm...life is like tt, since i'm always bad wif choices..however,i could say i did my best in studyin whole day night i just dont know why am I here doin sth i wan to do yet nt doin...i dun understand y ppl kept thinkin results r the oni ticket to success...i'm influenced by them...mayb i shld have gone to hell long ago...

mayb sumtimes the higher u fly the lonelier u r...i seem to b abit shocked on the tarot cards results by clara on mayb i wont b able to go volunteerin...i dunno y i was so taken by the words tt i'm so lost now so so lost on my decisions...mayb my stress are bad...they r nt goin this time but neither do i wan them to stay, i shall battle it myself...i shld noe how to treasure by now i have more than i desire tt's y i didnt have sth i wan instead opposite keep cumin...

money,money,money...i shall nt waste them anymore since i'm stupid n mayb poverty might cum soon on me..so no K-box forevevr, no spendin on junk food, no clothes,no shoes, no goin out trips, no fun anymore...of all things i do, i do not want my parents to worry but it seems tt i kept doin it...

I now know abt whu's my frenz n whu's nt?Frm a frenz tt's can b wif u 4eva, their gdbyes is so way diff frm a person whu's nt...i found out sumone has been usin me n kept ignorin me when i nid help..i still do not know whether is she/he sincere in bein my frenz?mayb i was way to suspicious...i'm abit crazy frm the illness...but i found so many lies told to me...i dunno myself it's so hard to believe sum1 once u were bein betrayed b4...i dunno if u happen to read this n know whu u r, plz tell me frank whether do u want to b my frenz stop usin me as if we were close enough to b gd frenz...sry if i was a nuisance...i think i'm just gettin crazy but i really think it's really hard to get what u want...nvm, tt's life!!
mi an hae yo, da bi cho so, ah la so?ahnyung!

2006-08-29T06:52:00.000-07:00

I finished watching all four seasons of love by Yoon Suk Ho, the director a.k.a the start of the Seasons(Autumn Story,Winter Sonata,Summer Scent n Last one, Spring Waltz)...

The 1st instalment of Seasons:AUTUMN STORY(a.k.a Endless Love)(starring the Then young Moon Geun-Young,Song hye-Kyo, Song Heun-Hun, Won Bin n Han Chae Young(dun like her until the Fightin Chunhwang!)

I could say it's the best of all as even though it's so long ago tt i have watch it still leave a piece in my mind on the scenes n story...it has the 1st 1st actual feelin of autumn expressed in the story, though it's really sad towards the end..The strong feelin of love,the memorable words expressed n the rare yet versatile casts...

I still rmb the cups, the scene where she runs to the beach n say, "R u my oppa?" I could say alot of overseas drama tried to imitate n was criticised..The 1st Korean drama ever i watched b4 n is the most popular one among most followers despite it's a long long ago work.

2nd instalment:WINTER SONATA( staring Bae Yong-Joon, Choi Ji-Woo n Park Yong-Ha)

Bae Yong-Joon n Choi Ji won was gt popular for this drama...i sae it's very good in the memories part where the younger part of the char were rmbin wat happen durin their times...it's really gd especially in bring the autumn then to the 1st snow part...it means Autumn love has changed to Winter love kinda of like tt.. Plz dun laugh but i went to buy the vcd b4 it becum famous as i saw this super gd review on it on I Weekly n was kinda curious as it's so me!The story shows me!hahaha..Mayb 1st luv is always the most memorable one for everyone, even if u lost them, the beautiful memories are stil ground for life...I dunno where i put it too..i will update wat it sae next time i found!!However the back part for winter sonata was far too draggy!!i dun like it, watchin it is so painful...However, the endin sux too..even though they are back together, the endin was amend by the rise of protest for JunXiang death so the director has to amend...which i think lost the grip he tryin to show...but whu asks Audience have the power...I understand!!hahaha...

3rd instalment: SUMMER SCENT (Starrin Son Yeh-Jin, Song Heun-Hun(oni lucky actor tt gets to act twice as lead), Ryu Jin(OMG!!he's so cute coz he really gentleman in life n in the show, dunno y is he so underrated in Korea!) n Han Hye-Jin(she's so cute in 18yearold Bride)

I could this instalment was very disappointing!Despite the fact I watch all the es, i like Son yeh-jin but actually, thinlks she fits spring better! She like Spring who slip into the land wif flowers with surprise, pretty n mysterious...
I dun reject the fact of usin SHH again coz i think he's nt bad in the role

Some of the parts were draggy n unnecessary...in fact i dun quite rmb much of the scenes oni on the train scenes,the heartbeat sound when she was walkin wif him, the umbrella scene(ending), their hikin scene n like tt...so few memorable scene..but i like the Lavender land they went...I luv lavender alot though it has becum a common frangance n product for beauty or etc..i think it so destressin n relaxin to stay in a lavender farm n stroll around it with ur loves one everyday!haha...i'm daydreamin again!!

4th instalment(last one): SPRING WALTZ( starrin mostly 1st timers as leads for the two male n female lead,Suh Do-Young, han hyo-joo, n i bet most ppl know him, Daniel Henney the cute guy in Samsoon n Lee So-yun)

This is the second best instalments of the season as i thinkthe director tries to make it more memorable n happy in the end..A focus on the childhood in the awesome trailer,it's one of the best ones i watched as it focus on everyone i think on the strong topic of chutsarang..I kinda sympatise the female supportin lead whu lost his childhood love, waited for 15 yrs for nth as she found out he has died n replace by another look-a-like which is the male lead n has another female lead..i understand the meanin of waitin n u found out in the end it's nth...I strongly assumes this is Fate...A woman's youth cant b wasted!!If u luv sumone, if he dun likes u mayb u let him/her go, when she's/he's happy, u feel happy...it's what daniel said inside, n i so touched coz i dun think most ppl understand wat's the real meanin of luv until u lost ur luv..He's a self-sacrificin char tt portrays a gd one..Friendship n Love which wld u give up n choose? He choose friendship after knowin the truth...mayb this is sumone i wan, self sacrifyin jus to make me happy...sumone whu understands me n can b frenz despite breakin up...nt to forget my aim of this show to c oppa!!SIWON OPPA!!hahaha...he's so funny inside real real versatile side of him...he's really won quite alot of ppl thru this show...haha...not to 4get the lovely childhood means alot to the show...the little female lead was so adorable...The scenes were excellent as usual i criticise the female lead as far too tender, male lead far too ugly
i really regret sayin tt coz man, i really think they r really gd
Director Yoon was right, he said he rather wk wif newbies as they
can give ppl sumth fresher n more truth!I agreed!
I luv happy endins n indeed it is...It merge sum scenes n words
frm previous instalments..e.g. Why mux lovers really build a hse
for their loved ones, isnt our hearts the best hse? frm Yoojin in
Winter sonata..n the lied down scene ingreen island frm Autumn
Story

“If you truly love him….if you genuinely miss him, someday you can meet and love him again…. Just like us playing a hide and seek during our childhood days,…. no matter how deep he hides himself from the world, and disappear from my sight, he who hides shall be somewhere out there…..always be waiting for me, the tagger. Regardless of how often failing to catch or missing each other’s ways, at the end of the day, your most earnest desire and pray shall lead you to him……only to meet and love again.” - Excerpts from Eun-young

I especially like this two scenes...it finally shown the luv u gonna live wif forever is sum1 u cld rely on..

2006-08-20T00:06:00.000-07:00

omg, i jus finish watchin suju fullhse!!i'm cryin for the farewell even though i'm jus a viewer,i experience their ups n downs thru the show...it's a very successful show!
i hope there is a 2nd season man!!It also prove i luv siwon even more thru the show
coz he is kind, caring,polite,humourous, emotional n also sumone which fits the line of forever!of coz, i think i don't like him for his wealth...but i admit his looks n charisma attract me 1st!!

hahaha...even though it's sad to depart, i luv its concept of friendship exp..

oh by the way,any1 gt credit card?can lend me?i nid to buy sth frm yesstyle.com frm this O.T.T.I brand frm Korea! which i think omg, it's all clothes i luv!!but it's nt tt cheap i nid to consider which one i buy! I luv korea becoz their clothes is me!! hahaha...plz help me decide by pollin in the poll i set!!but I still decidin!!haha..

Man i hate it when things get out of stock n I luv it so so much!!
i really luv the last five desighns alot but it's out of stock n might nt b in stock ever agin so i beg if sum1 saw the design plz tell me!!but of coz i still concern abt price!hahaha...

2006-07-03T08:35:00.000-07:00

I found out his heart has gone to others, he's forever gone, i'm goin to let him go n decided nt to tie him in my heart everamore, bye bye, mayb everything is my fault, i'm sry, tt's wat i can say oni in here...i have nth to face , u have nth to owe me...We r totally gone...wish u gd luck...bb...have luck with ur new luv...either u know whu i'm talkin to, u will noe deep in ur heart...bye!!

I'm happy tt this is totally thru, i'm relieved, no tears no nth, this is totally gonna b memories!!

OFF to my bf , TV!!bb

2006-06-03T02:09:00.000-07:00

sry for nt updatin but i'm super busy to write anything tt happen in my life, sum sad sum happy sum funny but i still carry on my life no matter wat!!

I will start to write a weekly quote/poems on my thoughts...

Love him, he loves her, she loves him2, him2 loves me...
Him2 stands by me, i stand by him, whether he loves me...the endin will b he loves her n i began to love him2...

Complicated!!this is a four love triangle thought of the show , stained glass, tt i watch of coz it's nt me... Just think abt the ppl u love does u really love him or you love ur male "best friend"...Think deep, love him, grab him b4 he's gone.. be brave 2 b everything but not like me whu let him go, n can nv bring back...

u understand already?

Next one,for the susan or susan think-alike in Green forest, my home,

Richness does not mean we cant b together forever or coz we nt from the same lv
it's just a matter of measure n u can b together if u think alike, have the same mind, be it rich or poor, apart or together, u will always b together once u aims to b...dun fight, dun b jealous, b happy u get ur love one blissful...

For Yu shun yu he in rival,

u help her, u harm her, u found out you love her
u grant her wish blissful wif her love one even though it hurt u
u noe how to love how to let go...mayb u dun exists mayb u have extinct but no matter wat fate sure decides u a girl tt take care of u this time...

For MGY in young bride,

u thought u nv suitable for each other, u wont love him
u found he's the right one for u as days go on coz he's always there for u whenever u r down, he stand by to support n love,

u nv know tt tt's love...until u really thought u gonna lose him...

Do u love me because i'm pretty or i'm pretty because u love me?
think!!hahhahahahah...

au revoir!!

2006-03-26T06:29:00.000-08:00

I jux lazy to update though "scolded" by chels alot of times, i'm goin to update in case i get beaten...wahahaha...

I had alot of fun at the class chalet at Aloha...wow, it's like a big contrast to costa..coz it's bigger alot,gt kitchen, their pool gt slide which convince me to swim, they have a big fridge where u cld stuff the whole person in...wahaha...blah..blah...most impt...it's alot cheaper, 4 daes 3 nites, was oni like a hundred plus i tink...i luv it..our gov r really gd at treatin their employeess, gd perks...

1st dae-went to check the condition wif chels, it's so gd we decided to slpz the next few daes, we was eatin canadian piz n was stuffed like mad,our stomach is gotta burst...then benson was scared slpin alne coz i tell him wat if gt 1 ppl cum n sae "AH BOY, ALone ah?" u noe wat i sae...hahah..i'm jux kiddin la...then after me n chels went hm to slp, it's the start of benson's worst sin, drink n get drunk...it's havoc!!!Denise, Abner, benson n mirza drank the whole bottle of tequila denise bought, luckily i wasnt there...i hate to get drunk...they were all drunk like mad...denise even took the pic of benson vomited in his bed...*YUCK*

2nd dae-the arrival of me,chels n mingyi to the chalet..We will havin BBq nwas doin up the potato(cheese) i made to grill but it took ages to be cooked tt i ask like the same qns over n over again, is my potato cook? I'm irritatin man but becoz i'm hungry so i went to eat noodles instead...but the qns is still on...hahaha...sry man 4 irritin ppl whu doin a hard wk bbqin...:p
At midnight, we will playin truth or dare, n it gt so borin but sum qns asked was so sizzling tt we might 4eva wont knoe if we dun ask...Chels had to sacrifice takin off sth frm her boby n wrapped it wf sth..not goin to tell coz i dun wan to be killed...but u can ask me abt denise n abner incident tt we laugh like mad..but the one whu's goin to sacrifice shld b denise but instead abner gt into it...hahaha...cheeky man...then we playin this irritatin flyin chess tt we keeep stuck in the same place...we will laughin like mad...wahaha...

3rd dae---we gave clara a big surprise on the celebratin her bdae but 1 tink was tt the cake we brought was terribly bad choice coz she dun like coffee n durian n the tiramisu cake we brought gt durian creme n coffee powder...but it wasnt really noticeble...hahaha... i'm lazy to continue for more info, plz visit Clara's blog...nitex

2006-02-14T02:41:00.000-08:00

WAT A BAD DAE i HAD FOR YESTERDAE FOR THE 1ST HALF OF THE DAE THEN HAPPY N TOUCHED FOR NEXT HALF...

WE SELL roses at Raffles Place wifout licence...n accordin to Penal COde ChAPT 68 Sections 2, 9, 136(1) and 199, we did no wrong...

Then AVA officers sae we offend the rule n some more sae we harass ppl, n accordin to chapt 184 13B (12/96), we didnt did anything illegal... WAT RIGHT they confiscated our roses...

There are few suspicious point
1st, If it's harassment, it shld b police, the authority...
2nd, if we r in wrong, they shld throw the flowers to the dust bins...y will they take wif them...
3rd was the most common cheat case scenarios was tt they oni flash their cards once n nv show again...
4th, they sae the wrong offence sentence, if we harass public, we will have a fine $150, but the actual was $2000 ...

bUT, Me, Chels, Denise, Isabelle,Nadia cldn't react in time for the situation, we didnt ask for their authority no...I keep sayin they might b fake but chels sae who will b so free to do so...but there are really such ppl...I dunno whether they r real or not but for sure, we'r UNLUCKY MAN!!

If they're real, we're far too "LUCKY" ,Alixues sae it's very unfair, THERE'S ALOT OF ILLEGAL VENDORS AT ORCHARD YET THEY NV CATCH, INSTEAD WE THE POOR ONES..HER FRENX DO THIS BIZ FOR LIKE 2 YRS YET NV KANNA CATCH , WE 1ST TIME WE KAnna, WAT GD LUCK...HAHAAHAHAH,,,...:)

I dun mind makin a loss, coz i oni invest for one dae..but wat abt chels,Bless & Ali? They invested $84 n mayb cld on take back 1/4 of it oni wifout profit...They make a TERRIBLE LOSS.. I felt sad...

THEN WE FELT NTH 2 DO, COZ WE TINK WE CAN'T SELL LIAO SO WE GO WATCH MOVIE AT CINE...

LAST FRI SPENT LIKE ALOT OF $$ ON FUN WIF DICK N JANE, YET I FELT IT'S A BIG LOSS, COZ TT SHOW LOST JIM CARREY'S TASTE N DID'T HUMOUR ME ALOT...OF 5 STARS I GIVE IT A 3 STARS RATING COZ IT'S ONI FOR PPL WHO HAS $$ TO WATCH...HAHAHAHA...

DENISE, ISA, NADIAH, CHELS N ALI WANTED TO WATCH FEARLESS, I DUN WAN COZ I HATE JET LI, DUN LIKE VIOLENCE...SO FEARLESS IN NT MY CUP OF COFFEEE...WAHAHA...CHELS SAW CUTE GUYS N AGREED TO WATCH WIF ME INSTEAD THE OTHERS GO WATCH FEARLESSS...

I NV EXPECT MY SHOW SCREENED ALREADY, SO HAPPY TT IT SHOWN ALREADY, CRITICS RATED IT 4STARS OUT OF 5STARS, SOMEMORE GT CHA TAE HYUN(FRM SASSY GIRL), SHIM MIN NAH( VOLCANO HIGH) N CUTE GUYS OF DIFF AGES SO I WANTED TO WATCH...

THE TITLE WAS CHANGED, IT CHANGES INTO QUITE A CHEESSSY NAME CALLED A SEASON FOR LOVE, INSTAED THE ORIGINAL SAD MOVIE, BUT OF COZ IT'S SOMEHOW BETTA....

I FELT LUCKY TT I MANGED TO WATCH THIS SHOW COZ IT ROX, NT BECOZ OF THE STARS, IT'S THE ANGLE,LOCATION,LIGHTS THEY SHOOT IT IN TO..THE STORY LINE IS LIKE THE WORLD'S COMMON TYPE OF STORYLINE YET, THE USE OF SOFT LIGHTS, USE OF DIFF JOKES N DIALOGUE....IT MAKES IT WORLD GREATEST MOVIE....SOUND CHEESSY BUT U MUX WATCH IT B4 U NOE Y I SAE THIS...

9CHELS N ME CRIED IN TT SHOW NEAR TO THE ENDIN, I THOUGHT I MIGHT B CRYIN YET I FOUND OUT CHELS ALSO CRYIN, BUT ACTUALL THE SHOW BRING BOTH LAUGHTER N CRIES WHICH RARELY A MOVIE BRING SO MUCH THINGS...

OH MAN, I FELT WATCHIN IT AGAIN, BUY THE VCD OF IT N WATCH TILL I AGE....

NOW LET ME SHOW U THE PICS N THE CUTE GUY ME N CHELS DROOLIN ON...HAHAHA

This the cute guy me n chels drool of...He's tall, cute, sweet ...

2006-01-30T06:39:00.000-08:00

AHH!!!!!!I nv save my previous entry!! ??I spend so long writin then it all dissappear!!!

Happy CNY every1!!!

i jus watched Devil Besides Me a.k.a E Mo Zai Seng Bian at my cousin hse....which has mike He n Rainie Yang but i like Wang Chuan Yi inside the show instead of them...the one tt like Rainie yet let her go to b wif mike even though he loves her a lot n he tells her tt he dun like her 2 make her nt so guilty...he noe wat's love....the right way of love.....He's cute,caring, kind, tall ( i think he's abt 1.78m), blah blaH...too much to describe.... but love him coz he gt a char tt most guys lack...

The willingness to let go to make his love happy..... ^____^I'm touched to tears when he did tt....
some guys jus want to OWN the girl instead of lovin them....

2006-01-13T22:27:00.000-08:00

I WAN TO DIVORCE MY HUBBY..TT FELLOW AH...GO TAKE HOLIDAE FOR 3 MTHS, N STILL REFUSE TO WK!!!

THEN I GO TELL HIM BETTA GO WK ORELSE I DIVORCE WIF U!! HE SAES HE'S SICK I TAKE HIM TO DOCTOR...

FINALLY YESTERDae, HE FINALLY CUM BACK BUT I SCARED LATA HE STILL THE SAME....

HAHHHAHAHAHAH....I BROUGHT NEW CLOTHES FOR MY BF,TOYBOY....

I SPEND LIKE $2OO+....I'M BROKE , CAN EVERY1 DO ME A FAVOUR? NOT TO GET BDAE PRESENTS FRM ME?

I MIGHT NID TO STRAVE TO SAVE THE $$...

AHAHHAAHAHAH....

CIAO

2006-01-09T08:21:00.000-08:00

I JUST WATCH CRYIN OUT LOVE IN THE CENTER OF THE WORLD, FRM LISTENIN PPL FELT IT MIGHT BE A CLICHE OR CHEESY SHOW, BUT IT'S A DIFF ONE, IT REALLY BROUGHT OUT UR FEELINGS ON LOVE....I CRY TOO....

WHEN IT CUMS TO LOVE, I REALLY ENVY THE COURAGE OF BOTH MY FRENZ THE COURAGE OF DARE TO LOVE, DARE TO C EVERYTHING...CLARA N SYA.,,,SYA SHOW US THE POEM SHE WROTE WHEN SHE WAS 14 N I REALLY CLD FEEL THE STRONGNESS OF HER LOVE,THE DEEP N DEVOTED LOVE....WHILE CLARA EVEN THOUGH SHE'S YOUNG TOO, YET SHE GOT THE COURAGE TT I DUN HAVE THOUGH I' OLDER...SHE'S REALLY VERY REAL TO HERSELF N FEELINGS....FOR ME, THE LACK OF COURAGE TO SAE TO THE PERSON I LIKED U SEEMS TO BE THE HARDEST WORD, I'M SHY MAN, I REALLY LET HIM DOWN, IF WASN'T FOR I, WE MIGHT B A COUPLE NOW....

LIFE CHANGES IN A TWLIGHT.....I CLD ONI SAE IN MY BLOG I LOVE U , mayb u didn't noe but i oni have the courage to sae it here..
I LOVE U HOW HAVE U BEEN VERY SRY FOR WAT I HAVE DONE I REALLY TH FAULT HOPE U FIND A BETTER PERSON THAN ME....
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2006-01-09T08:02:00.000-08:00

i noe i did sae i wld only write once a wk, but this is realllllyyy impt.....

I jus nid to vent out my feelings...

2dae seeems to b the worst dae on my life i ever have....

I flunked Brendal's ica by tt miserable 1/2 mark y on earth did she don't give me tt 1/2 mark....
It's quite sad i studied like mad for tt exams, n when i went in my mind gone empty...mayb it's sign tt i might die soooonnn...coz the moment i failed n everyone passed i really immediately felt like cryin n commitin sucide.....Mayb i 'm jus in the wrong course....I always hate managemt n marketin or biz stuff coz i really felt i won't b a gd bizwoman, i might sufferrrr...

BUT!! I 'M ALREADY HERE FOR 1 YR, SPENTINN $$ N TIME FOR THIS ONE YR IF I STILL FLUNKED MY EXAMS, I'M GOIN TO QUIT N TRANSFER NO MATTER WAT!!

I really have bad luck whole dae, I INJURED MY FINGERS, HIT MYSELF ON THE HEAD, N LIKE I WAS TARGETED....

BUT HAHAHA..THEN I THOUGHT IF I'M ABLE TO GIVE ALL MY GD LUCK TO MY FRENZ COULD U ALL GIVE ME SUM COZ I NID IT....N WIFOUT A BAD DAE,I WON'T BE LEARNIN MY LESSONS.....

SO I DECIDED THINGS
=> NO SHOPPIN/GOIN OUT WIF GANG( I NID TO STUDY N PLZ DUN FORCE/TEMPT ME GO OR I KILL!!)
=>NOT TOO MUCH TV FOR ME (IN CASE I WATCH MY WAY TO FAILURE)
=>NO DISTRACTIN IN CLASS, I MUX LISTEN!!!! (PLZ HELP ME NO DISTURB)
=>LASTLY, WRITE NOTES DURIN CLASS

IF ABOVE R NOT ACCOMPLISHED, U WILL NOT C ME ANYMORE....SO PLZ KINDLY HELP.....

OKOK...I WILL SAE PLANS HELP N NO MATTER WAT BAD LUCK OR DIFFICULTIES CUM, I SHALL STRONGLY FIGHT IT AWAY N LET IT GO, LIVE MY LIFE TOO THE FULLEST!!!

LOVE
ROSY^____^

2006-01-07T01:34:00.000-08:00

hahahahahah....due to laziness n busy, i decided to update only once per wk....

i was very sad, two of my jap hearttrobs one of them is 押尾学 / Oshio Manabu and the other got married....hahaha....

jus kiddin, i felt happy for them able to find their right ones....both of them are really gentlemen...one got married with his university classmates, another very pretty actress...i like the way they protected their wife....

Got sore throat n felt really sad without voice...the feeling of can't talk...

Jill still jokes tt my voice is very sexy....hhahahaha...

Serves me right for eating so many tibiits n drinkin so much cold drinks.....

The feelin of findin so many old clzmates is gd!!!!! Found so many clzmates n was really happy....
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Something really sad happens yesterdae...the whole gang of us n also wildthornberries went to far east n when jill went to find her bestie, we was walkin n we saw two injured pigeons...then when we were standin there, something very very sad happen..

Two cleaners picked them up n just throw them into their rubbish bag......It was a very cruel scene.....Pigeons have a life, they are not rubbish or trash...is not that the pigeon died, it is still MOVING....

R HUMANS SO CRUEL TT THEY CAN JUST MANIPULATE OTHERS LIFE!!! THIS IS JUST A CRUEL SCENE FOR PEOPLE ESP. KIDS, WAT IF TOURISTS WERE THERE, WILL THEY THINK SINGAPOREANS R CRUEL?? ACTUALLY BESIDES THAT, I THINK THE CLEANERS R DOIN THEIR JOB, THEY R NOT TO B BLAMED TOO MUCH, BUT THE JOB IS NOT TOTALLY WKIN WITH RULES!!!

okok, let me think tt society is cruel, is not u die or i die?? can? I'm also controlled by humans..

Let me go back to tues, i was shocked one of our clzmates get D- for the ica, n he always get A or B...
I think the one who mark the ica has bad terms with the class, n 1 thing i felt is she mark thru skills or thru person...

My frenz was very tired doin the ica at midnight due to some errors, he rushed thru the night n wat did she sae?
She sae if u dun bother to cum thru my class u can dun cum...

I really doubt how she judge our wk, she keeps insisting she's right... Like one incident, one clzmates already point out her error n it's already obvious, she;'s wrong she sae mux sae a wrong one to make u all realise the right one....

Wat!! this is jux gvin excuses...

I know she's a "Famous" media producer but she surely needs improvement in understanding teens n their acts, n also in her field, claims to be gd yet not really as gd, she's fit to guide not fit to teach....

if she's gd, she wouldn't still be in Singapore, mayb her products may sell to worldwide....

Let's forgive her coz she's dun have a mirror to c how the students feel n also she's out of the teens world....

^________^ Life still goes on....

2005-12-19T07:04:00.000-08:00

aha...I remove my password due alot of inconvienence caused....but dun offend me i will put it again to not let u c...haha...eps..Chelsea, wahaha...sexy fair legs, how can u win me?? wahaha...jux kiddin....If u got assets, mux show off man,chels dun hide it.... :p Hey guys dun sae i dun update...I update a long(x101010101010110) one this time.

Readers,

let me ask u question?
Is an ant's life equal to a human life or alot must die to equal one human's life?

Plz write ur answer at my tag.....

*Winners will win a MYSTERY gift....*

Faster tag first 5 will get another mystery gift even if u lose........

U really thought got a gift?? hahaha.....
Yes actually u got a gift, a gift is ticket to a lecture by Professor Rosy....hahahaa...

This qns was asked by my bro....I think y on earth ppl thought human r always superior than every animal livin....
A life is a life it doesn't matter whether it's an ant, cockroach, whale or a human....It's stil a life...
hahaha....do u understand man? Everything or everyone on earth's existance r a factor for the earth to keep turnin, u might tink if i die only my family, frenz will cry but if one person like me die, stop promotin bein vegetarian, killin, morals (oh no, M.R ur ricebowl gotta grabbed by me, mayb this shld b livin to u) etc.. the factors of stoppin and promotin lessen by one n if it accumulates to one yr, one trillion yrs....the contribution will b big....think it far...hahahaha....I gettin haggy.....:p

Jus watch project runway, OMG!! Wendy got in again but of coz, i dun really like her....She's dg324i3ufdjndfld@#@#@....but i felt she love her daughter, mayb ppl tink she did it for dramatic purpose, but I thinks she loves her...She might b irritatin at times n i so sad Austin got out of the top 3( i gonna spoilt ppl watchin it n i noe who won...Go check it) and she actually got in, i think she wanted to b famous to give her daughter a gd life tt's might b y she desperately wans to win but i think in times, there mux b always a bad guy to make the gd one a gd one...so i c y she mux sacrifice....

I think all the one in the world who r bad one r the one who bring u or force u to a more mature stage in ur life, mayb u might thought of thxin them....coz wif out them u might not b a better person than u r in the past.....

Life is always a sch no matter how old u r, u nid to learn to survive....

I noe ppl might think i think too naive in lotsa way but better be more forgivin n lookin on brighter side than b mean or blah blah but 1st of all be urself!!! But not in a stubborn way that irritates...World is abt communicatin n living well....How well ur life is, cum on it's all in ur hands.....

Oh no...I feel quite fake sumtimes becoz ppl keep thinkin of themselves like to act to win over, i felt like slightly like them, mayb i did things to win favour?? hahaha....I dunno but watever, Me is still me....

I won't change myself, u dun try to change me.....haha...

I'm Getting Haggy....Bear wif t readers...

take care

Lotsa love,
Professor Rosy

2005-11-22T12:49:00.000-08:00

Haha..Todae is such a great day, It's my birthdae, finally 18 liao....OLD LIAO....hahaha
Re@lly very thx Alleyiens catiies and dogs, Jacyn, Mic, clor, Wildthorn berries, Mic chong, Sya darlin, mira and Diya for all their gifts....I love it like mad, Do you know after receivin the gifts, i thought i dun have cake coz i though they oni give me the gifts oni but when it appears, i was shocked not tt i noe it was the normal routine to eat bdae cake us tt i did not noe really got cake for me i was really toucheed......

THX EVERYONE!!!

This the cute tigger tt the alley dogs give me....Delicious bdae cake i love it like mad!!! :)

Lata we all go far east plaza to eat Gelare to eat waffle ice cream, the service there sux man...The manager was so vexed give us the look of tt we owe her a lifetime $$. If u wan to b in the service industry, plz plz give ur passion to it, SMILE, customer are always the root to ur experience in life, be it they r demanding or friendly, they r spendin their $$ to b happy. One thing s'pore service lacks is the charisma n passion in the sales assistant or server.... TOO BAD.....

Oh there's one pic tt Jill stare at the ad of Motorola's girl's boobs....Quite mountain chicken hahaha....but it's look like jill style, CCP>>>>>hahahahaThese are some of our neoprints we took...Look at Benson...The funny guy he swims at the pic tt we write sexy...hahaha...I really have great dae, no matter in the gifts i received or fun n greetings i have, I really very appreciated it n I love it...

I LOVE U ALL!!! THX SO MUCH!!!!! U ALL R THE BEST!!!!!

My world wldn't b so colourful if u all didn't come......THX Love u all !!!

opps one more thing... I'm officially declared Lil'Tigger as our alleyiens ambassasor for lifetime.... Signed contract liao....

2005-11-08T06:52:00.000-08:00

I feel quite lost todae, after the words said by my mom, I felt so lost...I lost my values in life, isn't life as beautiful as I think? I noe the outside world is cruel, almost all about money...but isn't tt's the point I hope I dun live for $$...Yet my mom said tt I'm too naive abt the world...Life is hard...I lost myself totally n feel really bad...Y? I do not noe y the world I'm livin in turns into wat but I reallly wan to live in hese world where $$ isn't my concern...

Yet, I feel tt its' impossible...We nid $$ in almost everything....
I lost the meaning in life lost the value lost the love lost myself...
I really wish to change yet I knew the chances of it changin me might b higher...

I jux wan a peaceful & life, no thing to bother the love, relationship of loves ones....

Jux hope its possible.....

2005-11-07T22:00:00.001-08:00

2005-11-07T22:00:00.000-08:00

H@H@ so late to update again...I'm so lazy to update,
last wed, I enjoy my dae at Town though every one of us can't go Escape, we r still happy...I wan to go again during my b'DAE n JO's too.....IT's believe tt when the B'dae gal go to the amusement park, they wld get gd luck the whole yr...YAY!!!!

SKY HIGH WAS NICE N COOL...ESP, WHEN MY BF NO.4 IS THERE...WARREN PEACE....HAHA HE'S FIRE N I'M ICE, WE MELTS 2GETHEER.....^___^

2005-10-26T20:13:00.000-07:00

Yesterday went to MR house at Toa Payoh....Finally Finally...haha....Chels who sae ur house is messy? Mine more messy than u....wahaha....It was quite fun at sitting ur BIG ball.....hehe Watching ICE AGE , Harry potter's

HEHEHE!!!!
Chelsea's mission accomplished........
NEXT TARGET : CANDY'S House----Yishun

2005-10-24T19:57:00.000-07:00

I'm blogging in school ..haha...todae is okok day....nth to do now so write sth here... hahaha

2005-10-03T22:18:00.001-07:00

Haven't been updatin my blog, haha...I'm jux lazy currently I'm still slackin at home...Jux finish watchin beautiful life , rmb tt time I sae I wanted to watch this series badly as I wanted to now whether Shinbi the little gal die in the end coz she got leukemia n luckily she didnt!! Now k-drama have unfortunately shifted illness to little kids instead of the leads (b it male or female)haha...

Next drama I gonna watch is Love at harvard...Though I dun really like Kim Tae Hee(She's the wicked step sis in Stairways to Heaven), I can't denied she's really beautiful....Kim Rae Won in this show however is not as handsome as he was in My love patzzi...Haha there's too much drama n movies i wan to watch..... I guess i can't finish them

2005-10-03T22:18:00.000-07:00

2005-09-05T01:38:00.000-07:00

Hmm... Quite happy that I finally own my digital camera and laptop..but I'm quite a nerd in IT, I'm still very stucked wif my Apple laptop....:( dunno how to install dunno how to install the applications tt support mtv...

Hmm...wld some1 plz help me!!! I totally goin to cry..It's so new to me tt I totally lost at it..Maybe shld go for lessons on how to learn it...

2005-08-26T02:16:00.000-07:00

Went to the class chalet on last tues n wed,but it was not as fun as I think coz nearly half of the classmates nv attend, even 2 of our alleyiens nv attend. Pasir Ris cycling shop close at 6pm ==> no fun.

Luckily I manage to experience the natural e.g we watch how the hermit crabs change its home.haha...there are lotsa of it moving around the beach when it's low tide. U can see the pictures I take during the experience.. It's kinda fun contacting wif the nature though thruout the yrs,humans have been pollutin n ...Mother Nature is still wif us.

Next up is real amazing. All our classmates includin me did actually SAW MARS. As accordin to astronomers mars is comin near earth this few daes, I cld not really believe it's actually mars.We at 1st thought it's a red moon, how cld a red moon appear?? Maria also cld not capture it in film, she c it in the camera screen yet cldnt capture.Acc to my astro knowledge, normally a planet nid at least more than 15 captures n fix it 2gether b4 u cld capture the whole plantet. We found out until me n CLara went hm n we saw moon high up in the skyn not in front of us.So we noe tt that is MARS.OMG !! Isn't tt amazin!Haha...Stars will oso beautiful tt nite though make my neck a bit stiff coz i nid to lift up real high to c them.
Anyway, I still enjoy the whole event, so I hope we can do all this again n next time, every1 mux b present..I hope so..^_______^

2005-08-20T21:58:00.000-07:00

Lately, I have been wkin as a Data entry Staff at a Shippin company. I nid to wake up at 705am, damn early lah, always cannot get enough slpz...plus still nid to take MRT to the far location.Though MRT is always punctual not like bus which come at unfixed time, I wld get late sometimes no matter what.I tink it matters wif me.I go wk wif Clara n She's "always" punctual n I always late.It's kinda weird for me, when I nv go sch wif her,I always punctual or even early but When I meet her, I have the habit of bein late. My problem is damn big, if I'm late it's very pai seh for me towards tt person.Morning is quite a hard time for me, not to sae tt I always suffer frm stomach upset in the morning, it's so unavoidable n always when I abt to go out.But sometimes when she wait until she cannot stand it,I cld oni blame it on myself but mayb dun sae too harshly to me sometimes..It's kinda hurting..haha...

So so...What can I do?Hahaha...No choice.First day of wk, It's kinda of hard,too much things to type n i cldn't really adapt,but as days gone by it's gettin on track.I kinda like the job but jux mayb the time abit early for a slp-holic like me.haha ZzzZ....fFelt like slpin...haha..

Anyway,thx Clara for recommending the job to me...Thx for ur endurance to my lateness...

Yesterday,I went to the Summer festival.It's OK...not tt bad but fun was not as fun coz games will limited e.g yoyo (gd),scoop a goldfish(...cruel),basketball & darts(common)... (all meat)Food I cannot eat coz I'm a vegetarian.Nth much, no hanabi(firewks),no yukata wearin for me..It's not really as fun like in japan...But at least I enjoy abit..^_________^

It's very fast to exams which is 2morrow, n I haven't even really started.OMG!!! Jux hope I have more time, in sec sch, I did not study alot n normally exams i jux tikam thru but now...it's not as easy plus these exam weightage 50% damn high if I fail u will c the record breaker of NYP Media studies & management (coz 1st person to study 4th yr).Hehe..Haha(laughing hardly)..Plus I dun like this module (anytink related to biz I hate) but no choice whu ask me to choose media studies n management....Ok Nid to go study hard..Jux hope not to be the record breaker...HAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!^________________________________^

2005-08-12T02:12:00.000-07:00

Yo!! So fast todae is our last lesson for the semester. Time passes real fast...The happy thing is that holidae r comin soon( gotta get a part-time job), the sad thing is that We r goin to change gp next semester, I really love my gp but there's always separation in all situations. SPONGIES You all r the best.

The next sad thing is that examz is comin'. Though there's oni one exam, these exam is damn hard. I failed once for it and learnt my lesson for not studyin so I nid to work hard for it n goin' to study next wk orelse I wld nid to retake my modules.OMG!!! cannot imagine me retakin' everything again, I wld jus killl myself. Life's a real struggle when u r totally lost....

I'm goin to watch B*witched this Tues, cannot wait to watch coz it's really an fascinatin movie...HAHA....At least I relax awhile before my exams come. Jux hope I wld at least pass.

Todae the alley cats n rat have taken a pic jux outside the kannan office. I really think she is a bit too harsh to us but this is gd coz it means we r more able to face problems like these in the future.Life is always a challenge, you face alot of fun n difficulties.

ALLEYIENS RULZ!!! I LOVE YOU ALL!!

2005-08-05T20:37:00.000-07:00

I really hate to say so but i jux cannot stand some1 who's really slackin' n still dare to criticise ppl for their things. She pretend to b an angel, when ever she does something, she always choose the most easy. She still dare to criticise me on my email name, what's wrong with longmao? I like the chinese name of Totoro cannot? Email is to show ppl's character even it's not as pleasant so what? It's my biz, I'm totally pissed off when she say longmao is such an ugly name. What's with my email?

I jux feel wanted to tell her tt she shld jux shut up n think whether she have any contribution so far to everyone. She's so old yet still think like a kid. I cld oni sae she's really childish. But I do not wish to offend anyone so I shld jux leave her alone though we still meet in class. I think it's not tt the world is unfair, is the ppl tt make it not fair? For example, this gal slack during gp work but yet her score is the same as us. This is totally unfair to my other members who contribute so much yet they share the same score as the one slackin'? Why is this always happening in my world? Why do some humans be always so selfish? Why do life always be unfair to those working real hard yet they cannot achieve as gd as those slacking? I do not noe but it's like a route full of rocks which make our walkin hard but it make us grow up.

I shld jux thx my gp members who contribute alot to the gp ICA especially Jillian, Alixues, Diyana... Thank for all your hard work put in all ICA, I love u all, thx for all of u all endurin my lame jokes n laziness.HAHA, too bad we r goin' to part in sem 2 but at least we r still best of frenz. And I jux hope tt gal wld jux learn her lesson in the future n b more mature n think b4 she do n oso b more contributing . I noe humans make mistakes but mayb some mistakes r not mean to be made.

SPONGE I LOVE U ALL!!!!!!!WE R SPONGE ABSORB URSELF SQUEEZE OURSELF :P!!!!!!

2005-08-05T12:04:00.000-07:00

Wuhaha!! Went to JY's hm n we all went playing wif her dogs. But Jillian is a bit biased abt her dogs, she love Gabby more than sporty, She always ignored Sporty..So Sporty was pampered the most yesterday instead of Gabby..HAHA.... Sporty is very sportyjus as his name...He jux wanna play wif u everytime he c u n he's very small n light. He's cute. As for Gabby, though jux older than Sporty by few mths but He look really old n he's cute too. Jillian sae he's a gay but we think he might b not he might b same as sporty a homo..

WUHAHA n we all except Jill suspected the two dogs r havin an affair..HAHA We in our imaginative world again..Jill sae they always fight but we think tt's their way of lovin each other coz normally both char who always quarrel always ended up as lovers..HAHA...Jill mux b cautious abt it!!! Everything r always made Scandalous by us...HAHA..I really have a great day in Jillian hm HAHA, Jillian rich ah.....n talented too( plays guitar, piano n electric guitar WOW!!)... Next time shld get free lessons frm Jillian for Guitar!! The SS spirit influenced by Chelsea!!HAHA!!! Thanz for everything!!

JILLIAN'S MISSION ACCOMPLISHED!!

NEXT TARGET: Chelsea
LOCATION:Toa Payoh

2005-08-01T08:38:00.000-07:00

I have been terribly sick for 2 days( sat n Sun) for stomach upset and I tink all thanks 2 some1 whu kept cursin me death.Wahaha....No lah, juz ate something bad, tt's y i become like tt.
I noe the below things might b a bit gross but i still wan to sae.

On sat, I had totally no appetite what ever I ate, I would digest it out, n my stomach keeps being painful n I had nothing to do with it. All I can do is to bear wif it.U muz b thinkin what abt the doctor..I was too scared to see the doc so juz beared wif it for abt two days... Then at nite it became slightly alright n I tink i have recovered....Then..

On Sun, I ate youtiao+ soya milk n then i have stomach upset again.Serve me rite...^__^
I couldn't "fark" n digest.It was real upset..Now I noe the common tinks tt every1 usually do everydae r so precious...It's like suddenly one day u could not blink ur eyes n it's real real upset.

From 2dae onwards, I shall treasure whatever I experience b it bad or gd...It's still my daily "fun".HAHAHA.Tt's the end of my lame diary..

Ps* Happy 18th Birthdae to Von n CW!!!Best wishes!!!!

2005-07-27T17:03:00.000-07:00

YO!! Haven't post an entries for damn long, coz I'm really busy.
I'm very confused with some people, I shall not say who are them, In case I offended them.

Someone who is very talented , knows lots of stuff, good at studies and sports too and almost everything but yet she is bad at PR and relatioship with frenzs are damn bad.
Would you rather be someone who results are of average yet ur' PR and frenzship are excellent? Or someone who like the girl I mentioned? She may not noe tt actually alot of ppl do not like her coz they felt tt she's a hypocrite, she suddenly jux pull ppl's hair n do lots of irritating stuffs.

I used to be also bad at relationships, I always do my own things n there was one time when I was in trouble, I found out tt I nid frenzs.Luckily, I have frenz around me whu really care especially 5n1 classmates of SKSS 2004 n Yock Yee frm 5n2. Life would not have been better wif out u all.HAhaha......Thanx alot.Now, I also have a bunch of great frenz-the Alley Cats n Wild thorn berries. I'm their cold cold rat.Hehehe.......

When someone ask u into a relationship when u r in the midst of studying, is it really gd??
Do they really like u?Since in secondary sch, I felt tt ppl whu do tt, aren't really concerned abt u, they jux wan u, whether they go by looks or anything. I noe tt life muz b full of love to be able to live blissfully, but when it's studies, u nid to focus too. My results are really bad so I currently wld not b able to accept. Wait till I'm the top.Haha...No lah, wait till I'm able to cope. I can't do two things at a time.

Life is full of confusion, I hope I'm getting close to my answers.

2005-07-22T18:50:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was quite a great day!!!! Me, Sya, Diyana, Michelle,Chelsea, Joelyn,Candy went to orchard to shop, chit-chat..It's the 1st time I think tt I went out wif Sya, Diyana, michelle..Haha everyone was looking how ppl tatoo on their arms, n tt guy seem so relaxed. Muz b tinking relaxed?! Mayb he's used to it. For me, I won't tattoo, I am scared of blood n pain. If I do not wan tt tattoo i nid to endure a more painful experience to get it remove. Haha I rather used the spraybrush tattoo if i wan tattoo haha..or mayb the stickers...

Candy sae tt she wan a belly stud after she saw MichelleHon got one. Oh my, I dun have the guts to have a belly stud coz pain again, dun wish to torture myself.

2005-07-21T03:26:00.000-07:00

All these are the GIF I specially made for oppa, all these are scenes of him in the 1829 drama, haha..finally finish but jux hope can see his next drama soon called A Parents proposal, He's still as cute as he is in 1829 in the drama.

I also wish to see another korean drama called Beautiful life starring Kim Jae WOn and Eugene. I love their daughter ShinBi so much
She's cute and more clever than their parents. Haha, juz a pity she got cancer in the end but i heard she died but i do not noe whether is true or not, jux hope it's not true, Kids are always the one who suffered retribution frm parents or other ppl. Their small and fertile body cannot take such things, dunno y god still wan them to get illness and sufferings??:(

Kids are the angels on earth though they might b a nuisance to ppl but at least they are sweet sometimes, n they dunno wat is gd n bad, tt y they do things without thinking how it affects, n I like this type of character. There r far too much ppl who put on mask to harm u but i believe whether they harm or not, they mux have a hard time acting not like their own self. It's no wrong be ur'self jux be happy every dae life will be better.

<Da Siwon oppa Sarang>

2005-07-21T03:14:00.000-07:00

Aiya...I am going to be a panda soon becoz this wk everyday mux wake up real early at 640am, in case I get late for sch...Oh my I feel so tired everyday, can I camp at NYP instead, haha....^______^Life have been normal, every thing is fine, just that I hope maybe I could be more hard-working, I getting fatter n fatter n more lazy. Tt Remind u of wat rite? Turning soon.....Haha

2005-07-17T18:44:00.000-07:00

Oh my, I feel so bad after watching innocent this docu, it is so sad. A lady who commited suicide due to accusations that she abused the 3 year old child that she babysitted. She wanted to prove that she is innocent that she commited suicide, but does it really prove anything? Why do ppl commit suicide when they face a problem? Does death really solve the problem? No, in fact it doesnt coz you r jux running away from the problem and the problem is not solved.

What you might cause is sadness and heart-broken by ur' family. Think nefore you act. Do not run away from problems, face it and solve it.

2005-07-13T17:40:00.000-07:00

OMG!! Feel like watching this korean movie so much! They are so cute and the story is so sweet. It's my fave theme again- 1st love. I like the cast too coz Park min ji the female lead was the young hyechan for 1829 this drama.

This part of the review..
Jenny and Juno, fresh charming middle school students, are going out together. One day, Jenny brings a surprising news to Juno that she is pregnant. After due consideration, a young lover agreed to carry a baby. They make desperate efforts to keep it secret, but Jenny's older sister becomes aware of Jenny's pregnancy and it is directly revealed to both parents. Are they able to deliver a baby safely against parents' obstacle?

I guess have to wait until it is to be screen here or the vcds out. Haha hope it will come soon.

2005-07-12T04:06:00.000-07:00

Haha Today I went to Cathay Cineleisure at Orchard to watch a movie and on our way, we saw Good Charlotte, Jillian was damn shocked. She regretted deeply tt she never go get their signature. So to Jillian, if u r reading my blog, a haha to u. Nvm, next time u have chance too.

Oh my... is so touching though not as touching as Windstruck, but I like the concept. Keeping cassette tapes to connect feelin's n in the future when u are no longer together, u still have the memories when listening back to the songs again.Oh my.. hope I can do so too no matter with my bf or frenz. I reallyyy feel this movie is kinda of sweet n i did cried at some scenes which ppl might tink is cheezy.

Besides talking abt sadness, remind me of something funny. U noe when in an MRT we will fall when we have no pole to hold n Jillian was saying tt there was once her frenz goin to fall tt girl do the curvy dance on her. She was amused. Haha...So tis lesson tell us to hold the pole to balance or u end up embarassed.

2005-07-09T03:15:00.000-07:00

Ah... Gonna see finish 18:29 korean drama serials !! YAY!!!!!!! Cannot believe i gonna finish 16 episodes.Haha gotta miss choi si won a lot. He's real handsome!!
Even Chelsea is so smitten by him.Haha!! Really hope the producers make a remake of 18:29 young version with him and the young hye-chan!! AH!!!!

2005-07-07T20:03:00.000-07:00

Tod@y is 8 July 2005, I am kinda confused in the IT thing especially blogs HTML. I dunno wat to do and how to make a nice blog. If u happen to noe, plz teach me, plz HELPPP!!!!!! ME I'm kinda of lazy to update my blog H@H@ so nth much to see.